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Living with major depression - Searching for someone who understands to share with
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 Over the past, I want to say 5 years I've been severely depressed and get anxiety out of no where. I hide it very well because I've always been a generally bubbly person. But, it's getting so much harder now to hold everything in. Octover 2018 is when it got more real for my family and I. Something inside of me was just angry and depressed. I downed a whole bottle of pills praying it would help. But it didn't. 3 days later I wake up in the hospital and they make me go to a mental facility.  It was so frustrating. to this day I am still fighting those feelings. Nothing seems to help. I've tried antidepressants, THC, CBD, Oils and other medications. Nothing. What's even worse about it all, I get so angry and so sad at times and I don't even know why. Or else itll be because someone does the littlest thing to make me upset and I blow up and ruins my mood. At work everything is so hidden well, by the time I get home I'm drained and just want to sleep. I'm just so overwhelmed by all these feelings. What do you guys do to help it all?

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Hi

My name is Lorraine and I understand how you feel.  I also suffer from depression and it is not easy.  I also have OCD as far as things in my life.  I get very anxious when I don't get things on time and that turns into depression which makes me very sick.  When I get like that, all I want to do is sleep and cry.  You are not alone.  Anytime you want to talk, you can reach me at yiddlefeet22@aol.com.  I may not get back to you the same day, but I will  e-mail you in a day or two  because I too need someone to talk to.

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Ajelli.  Hello.  I am so sorry that you have been dealing with depression for so long.  Unfortunately, I can associate/relate.  I've been dealing with it since 2000.  My husband was diagnosed with ALS (Lou Gehrig's disease) at that time.  I then began to take full-time care of him, as he was physically disabled.  Then he passed away almost 6 years ago, and I am still reeling from that.  I feel that I will never get any better.  As I have only gone down hill in the depression since my husband's physical body became worse over time; the last year of his life he was not able to DO anything for himself.  his mind was there 100%, but his body was worth nothing.  That is the way that ALS does, it takes away the use of the body (in every way possible) but leaves the mind completely in tact.  The after he passed away, I was happy that he was no longer in severe pain & suffering, but my already bad depression just got worse.  People keep telling me that it will get better, but it's been just shy of 6 long years.  I wake up in the morning after a very horrible night of trying to sleep, and I have no  energy. 
Don't even want to get up and get dressed, much less do anything else.  Everything that I use to like, and have no desire to do them or anything else.  Carrying on, like I am supposed to do, has been beyond impossible. 

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hi im tanner i have diabetes and bi polar which effects my sugar and constantly feel depressed. i have no hope for a better future because anytime i feel like my diabetes could drop me. I feel like my bi polar pushes my friends and family away. i spend to much time listening to music then talking with my loved ones because i think ill push them away.

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I have major depression too. I'm 18 and have attempted multiple times... I'm constantly having panic attacks because of it. If u need to talk, I may not be the best councelor but I'm a pretty damn good listener!

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I am bipolar and have anxiety disorder which are both hard to deal with. Its like one feeds off the other. I have been in impatient hospital plenty of times. Mostly for suicidal tendencies but also to get my meds straight. I have been dealing with this since I was 7 yrs old and now am 41. There are alot of ups and downs for me even everyday I never know how I'm gonna wake up feeling. Today is a deppresion day and it sucks that it is so close to the holidays. Especially cuz I dpnt wanna ruin them for anyone. Unfourtnatly I like to hold my feelings in until it get so bad I am usually hospitalized. I am a big time isolator which is never a good thing. Well if anyone wants to message and talk I am open to that. I wish you all the best

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I am bipolar and have anxiety disorder which are both hard to deal with. Its like one feeds off the other. I have been in impatient hospital plenty of times. Mostly for suicidal tendencies but also to get my meds straight. I have been dealing with this since I was 7 yrs old and now am 41. There are alot of ups and downs for me even everyday I never know how I'm gonna wake up feeling. Today is a deppresion day and it sucks that it is so close to the holidays. Especially cuz I dpnt wanna ruin them for anyone. Unfourtnatly I like to hold my feelings in until it get so bad I am usually hospitalized. I am a big time isolator which is never a good thing. Well if anyone wants to message and talk I am open to that. I wish you all the best

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Sry it posted 2 times. Also am looking for friends on here so we could help eachother out

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I feel the same way everyday like the weight of the world on me thats why I join this website cause I need someone to talk to be so lonely and down and I have just been doin through so much so if u need someone to talk to im here cause I need someone 

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Shayla, I like your name.  I have dealing with depression since my husband passed away almost 6 years ago.  I have no desire to do anything, and nothing makes me happy anymore.  Not even the things that I use to love to do.  Now my favorite activity is to curl up or lay on the couch and watch
TV.  I do force myself to do things that need to be done, but it's not because I want to.  I am sick of not wanting to do anything and not being happy.  But have no idea of what to do to change that.  Lots of peole tell me to just fake it till I make it.  But it's been almost 6 years now and I still feel no better.  Unless a miracle comes along, I don't see anything changing for the better.  I've been on antidepressants, but none have helped much-if at all.  For me, I have days that are OK (not good but ok) days that are bad and terrible days.  In the past 6  years I can count on 1 hand the number of good or great days that I have had.