Topic of the discussion
Posted on 9/2/20 6:21 AM
So how does it feel to be truly happy? Like, 'Happy from within' as they would say? Cause ever since I was a child I've considered myself to be a happy and positive person, despite the terrible things that happen. And I tell myself "Im just a strong, happy person." but day by day I'm realizing that I never really processed any of the traumatic things that happened to me, never really acknowledged being hurt, used, and so on. .
One of the biggest contributors to my depression now is needing people.. I tend to always isolate myself when I need help but now I just really need that. I feel so dead inside, I feel scared and lonely, it feels strange being in my body, in my mind, I don't recognize myself and feel somewhat detached.
I feel like a stranger to myself tbh..
Beginning of the discussion - 9/2/20Lonely - How does it feel to be truly happy? https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/depressionloneliness-2449
Posted on 9/2/20 7:32 AM
Poor broke and lonely .I feel the same way .l get the feeling that nobody is willing to help.I gone to different organization and I feel like they won't help me because I'm not a addict.I think that help is not something I deserve. I think that.my life is over.
Posted on 9/2/20 11:09 AM
@qdsmith67399 Yeah, I really get that. I'm so sorry to hear that, but I share your pain. Gosh life is so dark when you're depressed. can't do anything
Posted on 9/3/20 12:14 AM
I share the same pain, it is a dark and lonely life, no energy or desire to do a thing
Posted on 9/3/20 3:15 AM
Hi I’m new to site my name is Fred. I am looking for help for chronic depression some kind of outlet someone to talk to a lot of the words that you guys used go through my mind all day it’s an endless struggle an endless loop of this empty feeling
Posted on 9/3/20 3:18 AM
Are used to love riding my ATV. Snowmobiling. Just doing any outdoor activity made me happy now I don’t want to do anything all I do is work if I had a brand new ATV in my garage I would not even want to ride it I don’t understand what has happened to me it’s like somebody hit a switch.
Posted on 9/3/20 3:24 AM
It is so hard to live life when you are running from the thoughts in your own mind. if anybody would ever like to talk with me I am a good listener I know what it is like to stumble around in the dark.
Posted on 9/3/20 6:29 AM
@DD2416 Exactly worded what I'm feeling at the moment. It's scary, not being able to look forward to anything or have anything to get excited or happy over
Posted on 9/3/20 6:31 AM
@Fred l9 Ouch, this hits hard. Looking at something you once loved doing and having no feeling now.
I share your pain, I'm here if you need to talk.. We're here for each other
Posted on 9/4/20 6:58 AM
i actually forgot what it feels like to be happy anymore I feel numb to everything