Need a friend to talk about mental illness

I feel so unmotivated to do anything. I don't have any one to talk to. I would be happy to listen.

What do you need?

Hello I’m new to this App thingy and I have a lot of mental problems and I don’t have family or friends and I was hoping this could help me connect with someone who knows how hard it is or just someone to talk about things to like distract from the stupid mental issues idk

I'm so sorry depression has overcome your mind with its dark, empty void. You are in a very sad, and bad place right now, but you have to remind yourself that this is temporary and as horrible as you feel, dying is a bad choice, call yourself a ambulance and go to the hospital for help, I too have issues of very deep depression where my mind lies to me, I have to finally learned to call 911 if I start thinking I don't want to live anymore, or I think of the different ways to take myself out painlessly. Its possible you need a medication tweak, and the hospital is the very best place to change your meds, because you will have support and immediate help if the new medication has adverse effects. I hate my illness, I am manic depressive, type one, rapid cycle, with panic disorder, ptsd, chronic depression and add, and at times I have issues with addiction. You are worthy of happiness and love, I tend to isolate myself when I can't function, I live alone with my dog. I truly have no-one o talk to about my issues, and sometimes it really does help to have someone trying to understand my illness and be supportive, and care about me and my mental health.

I know how u feel. Each day I wake up and want to feel normal free of depression but it never seems to go away. Depression or anxiety haunt me constantly. I work my hardest at tools to make them go away. It definitely makes me feel suicidal. I've tried at least 50 Med TMS, ECT hard to stay optimistic.

How many mania episodes has everybody with bipolar 1 had?