Living with major depression - Searching for someone who understands to share with

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10/25/2019 at 4:18 AM

This forum is incredibly helpful. To combat depression, simply schedule a session with a therapist. If the medicine isn't working, consider spravato treatment.

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02/21/2022 at 9:03 PM

@SierraLS9 I feel the same way! Except I only have on child who is 7. How Old are your kids? I feel like such a failure and that I’m not good enough. I cry everyday and tell my son I’m sorry that I’m sick. I don’t think he really understands but it breaks my heart. He deserves so much better then a depressed mom who’s in bed all the time! I don’t know how much longer I can go on. Sometimes I feel like he’d be better off without me. His bio father isn’t involved. Thank god for my fiancé who has taken on the mess of me and a child that isn’t his own. I feel guilty everyday. I’m taking meds, I’m trying to push myself to just do basic things around the house but it’s hard. I feel emotionally detached from everyone and everything. I’m barley eating and I only sleep now because I take mirtazapine 30mg at night. But the past couple nights I’ve been waking up panicked at 4:30am and can’t go back to sleep. So here I am again, white knuckling through another day of sitting in the house because my anxiety stops me from leaving. My poor son deserves so much more.

Living with major depression - Searching for someone who understands to share with https://www.carenity.us/forum/other-discussions/living-with-depression/major-depression-1292 2022-02-21 21:03:02

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02/21/2022 at 10:39 PM

@DiamondNaree26 I understand how you feel. My episode of depression has been going on for 3 months now! Before this I was self medicating with norco. And when I stopped taking them I had a mental snap. I quit smoking weed now because it makes everything worse and I don’t drink. I just wish there was a magic pill to make it all better because most days these days I wish I was none existent.

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05/07/2022 at 9:21 PM

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@alex11 I have it as well and I know that daily struggle. It's so hard just to try to function much less be halfway normal. I put out there on my Facebook exactly how I felt asking for people who felt the same to contact me. And they have. I have met so many wonderful people from that text. Try it you get bunches of people that know what ypu are going through. Hugs and I hope we get better.

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05/15/2022 at 5:23 AM

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@kjblue1952 Hi. I am suffering with treatment resistant major depression also. Would like to correspond with you. We have a lot in common. Thanks.

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05/16/2022 at 3:17 PM

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I have been dealing with Major Depression and anxiety for over 30+ years. My anxiety developed during my childhood as my mother suffered from Bi-polar disorder undiagnosed and my father was an alcoholic. My older siblings had it worse as they lived with both of my parents during their formative years and they ended up emotionally and psychologically damaged. I am not a people person and I don't like interacting on a personal level with others. I have superficial relationships with others as I don't feel comfortable sharing my thoughts and emotions with other. So I mainly struggle alone. I am in therapy and have been off and on for years. I have recently come to accept myself and try not to worry about what others think about me. Yet still I struggle. I have been on many different medications over the years and the meds have helped. But I still feel damaged and I guess that feeling will never go away. I am looking for someone to talk too and someone who understands how I feel so that is why I am here.

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05/16/2022 at 8:12 PM

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@Michelle I know what u are going through. I have tried multiple meds, have done TMS, Ketamine and ECT. Still dealing with depression and a lot of anxiety. I think the anxiety bothers me the most right now! I wake with it and can't seem to get away from it!

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@Michelle don't u feel after doing 23 shock treatments there's nothing left. I did the same ! How do we stay hopeful?

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05/17/2022 at 5:47 PM

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@Michelle have you tried mushrooms or MDMA? I've been on over thirty meds I have bipolar 1 and severe depression and anxiety PTSD ADHD. Barely anything has helped really nothing has helped depression besides numbing out narcotics which I don't do and manic episodes and then I just get crazy depressed when I fall out of it. I've been suicidal since I was 4 so a good part of 35 years. I have crippling anxiety daily and have spent more then one stent isolated in my house for months never opening up the front door. Have you tried EMDR?

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@Truint40 No I have not tried EMDR is that the eye movement? I've thought about trying mushrooms but do not know of a clinic that does them. I'm so frustrated and it's so hard to not become suicidal. I really don't want to die! I just want to feel better alive!

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05/18/2022 at 12:50 AM

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@Michelle yea it helped me with some stuff. PTSD stuff. Depression I've never really found anything. I'm pretty much done myself.

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