You're not alone with bipolar disorder: Daily check-in

I feel so alone and every day is a constant struggle

I am pretty stable, but I do get depressed because i have too much time on my hands. I don't work. My husband makes most of the money and then i get SSDI. I don't have many interest in any hobbies except for picture taking and making photo books. People tell me to volunteer somewhere or find a hobbie. I don't know what is holding me back from taking action in my life. I took my dog to the dog park today but it takes alot to get me there. I wait every day for my husband to get home from work. I am always so excited but when he gets here its not always what i expect. He is busy or tired and tries to spend as much time with me as he can but i have to let him do his thing too because he worked all day. He needs his time alone and space to do his own thing also. I am just mainly bored. Too much time on my hands. Does anybody else go through something similar to this?

Today is a rough day, didn't sleep much the last couple days. We have a new puppy which wakes me up at early hours and my mind has a hard time shutting down at night. I get so tired of having disagreements with my other half. Getting b..at every morning cause he slept like shit. Well neither did I. I want to get in my truck and run...which is bad. We have been together 10 years and both rapidly depression episodes. I just bottle mine up til I explode. Why can't I ever have a normal life or relationship? Blah!!!!

I am in a good place if you are looking at it from the outside, but the inside of my head is a mess...My life is really going well. my business that I have been working on for years is thriving, I just took on a huge long term client that I am very excited about, my marriage is doing great after a supper rough patch for a couple of years, and everything else is good with all things considered this day and age. BUT my anxiety is through the roof, I have been having (I think panic attacks), I am so afraid I'm going to mess everything up. I procrastinate a lot, and am just waiting for the other shoe to drop, to have another manic or depressive episode, or something else to go wrong.

My husband has been out of a job for about a year and a half and we got along so well. Now he's got a job and he's brought home 2 paychecks and isn't being very nice. He being very short with me. It sucks

@butterfly77

I also struggle with this. I get ideas and always find road blocks especially the depression and anxiety to meet new people but need to so badly.

@Ownthegoddess

Me too especially around 7 pm when my life was so busy before now nothing

@Morckster Yes. I struggle with it. I was a vibrant woman with many friends and many activities. Depression has taken that away. I had been stable for 10 + yrs. I don't remember how to combat it. It's all I can do to get by.

@butterfly77. I know exactly what you're talking about. If my husbands outside doing some work. I'll just grab a chair and my coffee and sit and talk to him. He doesn't seem to mind that.

@BarbBollman

I have been pushing myself to see people so hard sometimes feel always me doing the work I get wiped out and do not feel the same energy afterwards that I used too.