I don't know how to live without anxiety

Hey everyone. I’ve lived with anxiety and depression for 10 years now, well anxiety 10 year’s depression all my life. Recently I’ve started positive affirmations in the morning and night time, this past week has been one of the best weeks of my life since starting. Here’s the weird part though I’ve lived with anxiety for so long I’m not sure I know how to live without it, I know that sounds so weird but I then almost give myself anxiety because I start thinking omg what if something is wrong, why do I not have the constant anxiety that I always have. Am I crazy for thinking this way? Please share your thoughts

I think it's reasonable, your brain has most likely just adapted to dealing with anxiety. Whether you realized it at the time or not, your schedule and practices were probably fitted to better deal with your anxiety. As things get easier, you'll adjust to that too. But no, it's not weird! ;)

That’s so normal.  If I’m putting this correctly…, our endorphins get use to being feed by our mental illness that, when our highs and lows become more like normal…., our endorphins have to learn to live without the highs and lows.  Does that make sense?

All it took was hearing my ex narcissists voice on the phone and I’m literally began missing him.  I wish I could make myself move on, but I don’t think I’ll ever do it.