I really don't feel like living - need support and to talk

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Tamra1

05/08/2018 at 4:23 AM

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Yes, I now saw your problem, but unfortunately I could not see any more or less suitable solution for your situation. Apparently, you are starting to have a deep depression, and one of the best ways to get out of this state is considered to be high-quality cannabis from a dispensary.

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09/21/2020 at 12:41 AM

I'm tired of fighting at night with myself. If I could just be literally punished by someone who really loves and cares enough to and truly fuss at me believe that would be a start because I will be able to scream and cry all the pain, physical, emotional,and mental pain out of me.😭😭😭

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castledepress

09/21/2020 at 5:16 PM

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@Alamb6886 How about understanding instead of being punished which you seem to be doing quite well on your own.

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09/21/2020 at 5:21 PM

@castledepress‍ How can I scream and cry it all out with just understanding? I need physical pain in order to get the deep rooted emotional and mental pain. It has gotten me all bent out of shape and desperately need some relief.

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09/21/2020 at 5:25 PM

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@Alamb6886 Are you seeing a therapist?

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09/21/2020 at 5:34 PM

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@Alamb6886 Screaming and crying is fine but is it providing any kind of relief? You might need to shift your focus. In the late 60's there was something called primal scream therapy which was so so, it was certainly primal but didn't necessarily yield the best results. How do you feel after you punish yourself? Is there a release?

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09/21/2020 at 5:43 PM

@castledepress‍ It will if I am able to get it channeled out right by someone who really cares for/about and loves me. I basically do more fighting with myself than I do punishing me myself because it seems to help more if it came from someone else because that person ould be fussing at me as well.

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09/22/2020 at 1:50 AM

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@Alamb6886 Thank you for sharing. I feel your pain and I struggle with forgiving myself and others for past events as well. Your discourse inspired me to do some research on forgiveness. My favorite quote is from Dale Carnegie who said, "When we hate our enemies, we are giving them power over us: power over our sleep, our appetites, our blood pressure, our health and our happiness. Our enemies would dance with joy if only they knew how they were worrying us, lacerating us, and getting even with us! Our hate is not hurting them at all, but our hate is turning our days and nights into a hellish turmoil."

Sometimes our enemies include ourselves if we can't forgive ourselves too. I appreciate you sharing your pain and I will keep you in my prayers once I am able to forgive God.

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09/22/2020 at 3:52 AM

Thank u. I'm in such a deep hole Right now and the only way I can start to come out is to have someone who loves n cares about me enough to really fuss at me and lay me over their lap and literally spank my bare bottom cherry red and get me to cry it all out n scream it out and not to stop until I do. I'm being honest and serious n real here.

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09/22/2020 at 6:07 PM

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@Alamb6886 Have you actually ever done therapy?

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09/22/2020 at 6:11 PM

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@Alamb6886 You feel dead inside and think that some kind of punishment will at least make you feel something. I get it. I did the same thing with alcohol except it was to numb me, not make me feel anything.

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