I really don't feel like living - need support and to talk

I seem to always invalidate my more dark feelings to being over dramatic or being an attention seeker so I’ve never gone to seek help even after even having attempted to commit. Reading these experiences and thoughts, similar to mines, I’ve started thinking that it’s time I start looking for help. Is there any advice from anyone on the board on how to get started? I’ve started the process before but will have one good minute of feeling content and drop everything. I always just go back to dismissing these feelings.

@Yaishileat8 do you have a doctor? That is the best place to start. Then get referrals to a Psychiatrist and a Therapist. These should be your first steps to begining a life of recovery and learning to deal with your mental health. Trust me, this was the only way I truly felt I had a chance at dealing with my mental health. Please feel free to visit my You Tube Channel I have lived with mental illness my whole life. I was trained with a plethora of information to run a DBSA peer lead support group, because I have been there, I can help. My purpose on this earth, that God gave to me, is to help people living with mental illness. Please visit my channel, watch my various videos titled "Let's Talk Mental Illness"

I truly hope that I can help you.

God bless. 

I just want to say that no situation is hopeless, and while the above entries are sad, please get help and do not end life, because there is always hope for better days 

It’s so extremely difficult to get through each and every day. One condition aggravates another. I’m home bound with chronic pain, anxiety, depression, and I’m am so very tired from not being able to sleep enough. I’ve lost touch with all my “ acquaintances “ and my real friends are too busy. I feel so alone. I’ve been struggling for a long time and I’ve been trying to tell my doctors that I am without saying anything that would end up with me being put in a psych ward. I’ve been in a psych ward many times as an adolescent and twice as an adult. It would do me more harm being admitted especially since I have to rely on medical marijuana to help with pain. I hate using the marijuana. With my PTSD I feel the need to constantly be aware. Hyper vigilant I know. I’ve learned all the tools to help but with pain, anxiety, and depression it makes it awfully difficult. I feel as if I’m all alone. When I need someone to talk to there isn’t anybody. I want desperately to be euthanized. Animals like dogs, cats, and horses are able to be put down but for humans... we are left to suffer. It’s much more logical to not exist. This isn’t living and all the years and treatments and medications aren’t helping. I seem to be treatment resistant. I’m suffering and I don’t want to anymore. Does anyone understand?

@Hidden username Oh Jeff I'm so sorry you're feeling this way! I get it I've also suffered with depression since I was an adolescent and I'm almost 60 years old now.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that you find what is truly for your highest and best.  You are not alone ever!

@Noclir714 trust me I’m the same way text me anytime 616-405-3934 I’ve been trying to contact a girl and she wants nothing to do with me even though she told me she’d be here for me for the next 50 years if she had too 

Even though I am a grateful person, I don't find enjoyment in anything anymore. Do people without mental health conditions even realize how frustrating and exhausting it is to live like this? I am so tired. 

hello I haven’t been on here for a good while but I’m disabled and have ptsd and anxiety and depression. I just started having panic attacks last year. I always think I’m better off not being here as I’m tired of how life has been treating me. My name is Mindy and I’m from Ohio USA and I’m 40/f. I been in the psych ward 3 times in the past and which none of those  times were helpful and my meds seems to only work for a short period of time they been changed so much. I do have two counselors.peer support case manager and a psych dr. Sorry for rambling on like this.

Sometimes I feel the same by not being here.  I suffer anxiety and depression too.  Currently I am on two medications, Sertraline and Mirtazapine and Cognitive Therapy with my therapist every two weeks. I will be happy to share with you the outcome of my therapy.  I have only had two sessions.  It does take time to see results but I am willing.  I am 62 and have been through a lot in my lifetime.  I am also on disability.  I am currently studying to become a medical coder and be able to work at home and I am involved in Bible study.  I hope you begin to start feeling better.  You are not alone.