Topic of the discussion
Posted on 6/22/20 3:37 AM
I can’t manage to feel like this evry second if evry day, so I self harm and I hate it I have scars and pepile look and juge me and I feel uncomfortably guilty afterwards and I don’t know what to do anymore and I can’t ask for help from my family because we are already so broken I don’t want to make anything worse and there all stressed taking care of my dad (he is verry sick) and when I don’t self harm I do stupid things the other night I went to my friends house and we took her parents vodka and I drank quite a lot and we ended up kissing (even though u don’t feel Like that way for her) and then the next morning we didn’t talk and then the day after she sent me all these photos of these boys she wants to date trying to prove that she’s not gay to me and it just hurts because now I can’t talk to her and she was the only person I could talk to, to calm me down after self harming but now she’s gone and my dads sick and the only thing that’s stoping me from killing my self is my sister.
Beginning of the discussion - 6/22/20Struggling with self-harm https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/self-harm-2081
Posted on 6/22/20 7:04 PM
@Jackie07 Hello Jackie07, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Please know that the Carenity community is here for you. You are worth more than the pain you inflict on yourself. Learning to love yourself is incredibly hard, but you have your friends and this community to support you. Do you have any passions or hobbies? Sometimes throwing yourself into something you love can help you distract yourself from your pain and help process some emotions.
If you feel like you can't deal with these feelings any longer, please reach out for help. You can text HOME to 741741 to connect with a real human and strategize healthy coping mechanisms to manage your emotions. If you'd prefer to talk over the phone, please call 1-800-273-8255.
Let me tag some members who can maybe share some words of advice or support with you. Hello all, have you ever dealt with sever depression that led you to self-harm? What did you to to feel better or to cope with these feelings? Can you share any advice or words of support with Jackie07?
@JALISA18 @kojonyae @Wonder @tlr9053 @Des_bridge @Becca60 @Jennifer3 @OnlyAmy @Dettaj @Ginn1961 @Kimmer717 @SharonAlvarez @blisstine @Granni @Kbar1985 @Missangiielee @Oweemytoe @Tournzero