Not Sure Where to Go from Here

Hi my name is Melinda and I been battling depression for a while now. I have a serious physical illness that effects me mentally and emotionally. I feel hopeless and helpless everyday, and have been having thoughts of suicide. If anyone can help me with a good coping skills for depression that has worked for them, please share it with me.

I relate to almost every word of what everyone is saying here. I am at a point where I don't even have the energy nor will to write any more words. It helps reading others feel what I feel though.

Is this a good time?

Melinda battling deppresion is a tuff one. Especially when u feel like its never gonna get any better. It will it takes time and you have to force yourself to do things to keep your mind busy. I spend alot of time by myself which really sucks but I'm an isolator and its hard to stay of of my head. I do also feel low energy which does make it hars to do pretty much anything. I write down lists of things I wanna get done and to be honest I'm happy if I can get one thing done. Animals help me alot I love them and they show me affection by laying with me or my cat like to jump up on me and purr. They make me feel good.

As for the suicidal thoughts I can relate very much. I just got out of the hospital for that a couple weeks ago.  I'm back to seeing my therapist once a week and am on some different meds now that seem to work alittle better . I don't have any friends so thats no help but I have met a few people on here that seem to be nice and we chat a bit. I kinda like that I can get on this app and read other peoples comments so I can relate and not feel so alone.  

I wish you thw best and have a good night

Hi my name is Samelly. I have been battling with depression since I was in high school. I have my good days and bad. Recently it been effect my relationships. I be doing things that been outside of my character and I been hurting a lot of people. I don’t mean to but I been feeling like I have no will to even try. Is there any tools out there I can use to help me try and cope with this?

@sweetluvgurl 

i honestly really do appreciate what you said but another thing that makes me feel horrible is that I just can’t believe it or have any hope that the things people say that are trying to help me is true, it’s very rare that someone will actually try to help me so When they do it feels like they’re lying to me, I’m not a stubborn person at all but when it comes to mental illness and people saying I deserve happiness, no matter how much I try to believe them I just can’t, Like I seriously can’t explain it but it’s like I believe it’s not true that I deserve happiness even though I know it’s true and that everyone deserves happiness but I can’t believe it and it sucks, it feels like I’m two different people, one side of me is just hating life everyday and here and there I’ll feel like I’m happy but only for a couple minutes then I go back to being depressed, people have told me life will get better but it always just gets worse and worse and recently my best friend try to kill himself and that had a huge impact on me, i just wanna leave so bad, I hate this so much, like I’m not gonna do anything to harm myself but I just leave this mental space in my head, I’m probably making no sense but I hope you understand, I won’t kill myself but I want to leave this place so bad, sometimes just realizing being In this place just gets me so upset, someone could easily take my place and be everything every wants them to be, but instead I was chosen and now I’m the failure everyone expected to be 

@Dozer2019 Thank you for your post, I will take your advice. 

hey everyone, my name is Meghan. I’m new on here but I have read all of the discussions from this forum and can relate to so many of you. I figured it’d be therapeutic for me to type up and share my issues, since everyone says talking helps. maybe I can even help a few others out by sharing some things that help me.

I have suffered with mild anxiety since I was 12 (crazy, I know) but have just recently in the past 2 or so weeks been affected by depression. the combination of both has really taken a toll on me. I have always been an outgoing, loud person that some people may even consider annoying. I’ve always put others above myself and always gone out of my way to make others happy, even if im not happy myself. I loved going out with my friends and I have the greatest boyfriend I ever could’ve imagined having. I loved going to school and I love cheering. I even have been working on making a college cheer team; tryouts are in April. The thought of that used to excite me to no end, but now that I have developed depression, everything feels different.

I feel nonexistent basically. I don’t know exactly how to describe it. I don’t feel emotions and excitement like I used to. I feel like I am not myself anymore and all I want to do is sleep. getting out of bed is sooo difficult for me, especially since we're on Christmas break right now and I haven’t had a valid reason to. Things Ive always looked forward to such as going to the gym, cheering, being with my friends or boyfriend, and going to school now feel like a burden. This is taking a toll on my relationships with others because I want to be alone, but at the same time I don’t. I want to be alone because I feel like everything in the world is just meaningless and nothing can possibly make me happy anymore. but I also don’t want to be alone because being alone gives me more time to think of all the negative thoughts. I want to be able to be excited again. I want to be able to hang out with my friends and not want to go home the entire time. 

Doing the things I enjoy does help. although the thought of getting up and going to the gym sounds absolutely miserable, when I actually get up and get to the gym I don’t feel as bad. of course I still feel like I would rather be in bed but its not as bad. actually being at cheer practice isnt bad. I enjoy it while I am there. it is the getting up and making myself go that is difficult. this used to not be a problem. 

I am slowly getting the hang of things by trying to keep myself busy but that doesn’t always work and the negative and lazy feelings are always still there. I could definitely use a friend or two who understand what I am going through to talk to and share ways to cope. I would suggest those who are suffering from depression try hitting the gym. That is probably the best way to cope for me. going to the gym makes me forget most of my worries. It is a short fix, but it is helpful. If anyone has any advice for me or would like to message back and forth, let me know. I would love a few friends who share the same struggles as me.

God bless you all and I hope everyone is doing okay<3

@SamellyA12 I am having the exact same issues and I wish I had some advice but I am looking for the same thing! Hopefully there will be someone out there who have some good tips on how to get us back to normal  

Yes hopefully cause I need to be able to let it go