Need to Vent/Need Some Positive Vibes

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abrowning13

11/15/2020 at 4:43 AM

To start, I am 27 and on 100mg of Zoloft and 10mg of Buspirone, and I see my psychiatrist regularly for refills. She is aware that I've been struggling and recently upped my dosage of Zoloft to 100mg and I've definitely been feeling better on it.

Now to the venting: I lost two of my closest friends today because they can't handle being my friend when I'm spiraling in my depression and anxiety. They've both apparently been very concerned about me over the past couple of months and have been talking to each other about it, but haven't approached me or even bothered to ask me what's wrong or what I need. Instead, they've passed major judgment on the fact that I've gained some weight and haven't been cleaning my apartment spotlessly. And, instead of helping, they've both decided that they don't want to be a part of my life anymore. I was the maid of honor in one of their weddings in January, but apparently, I'm a terrible friend and have been for a while.

It just sucks that they really only want to be my friend when I'm feeling semi-decent and normal, but when I am struggling it's a problem and they want nothing to do with me. I mean, don't we all get a pass this year? With COVID, social distancing and being alone all the time, trying to be a good teacher while also staying safe, and my cat dying of cancer 2 weeks ago.... like am I not allowed to be upset?

Tell me happy things. Send me pictures of your pets. What normally cheers you up when your friends suck?

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Archerygrl

12/10/2020 at 7:33 PM

Hi everyone my names katie I'm 33 I'm on 15 different medications I have bipolar depression anxiety as well as other medication just 2 days ago I was told I have cancer again for the second time and I'm currently in trauma counseling due to last year having a situation witch has now caused me to be afraid to leave my home I'm scared of being in the car riding on buses its affected me tremendously but the one thing that helped me from feeling this way was ripped from me and now I sit and feel lost and useless all the time I was a teacher for 9 years and it's gone just gone and I dont know how to get it back due to being scared to leave my relationship I dont feel strong enough sorry for complaining so much but I feel like every day why do I have to wake up and go threw this over and over again thanks for letting me vent

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cheena71

12/10/2020 at 8:22 PM

I'm frustrated, hurt, etc....I've never been married and have no children. I'll be 50 yrs old in a few months. Most of my friends are married, some going on their 2nd one and no one is interested in me. My friends keep saying, "it's not you..." but what am I to think? I am not one who has unrealistic expectations. I'm not looking for someone who is rich. You get my point. I feel so overlooked. What makes everyone else so special but not me? I feel alone, ignored, unimportant and forgotten. I feel as if God doesn't care about the desires of my heart. It seems like I've been forsaken or not important enough to bless with a good husband. My father is deceased and my mother has Alzheimer's. Most of the people in my family that I was closed to passed away. My friends can't handle me when I'm down so I, too, isolate. I need to cry out to God but I feel like He's not listening or just doesn't care. I'm just....agh!

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