Depression - I don't know what to do or how I can get help

@lilypad Hello lilypad, thank you for posting. I'm sorry you're having these feelings, sometimes loving one's self can be the most difficult thing of all. Please know that you're not alone on Carenity. Feel free to post in other discussions in this forum, I know that other community members can offer you their advice and support.

Take care,

Lee

hello lilypad, i too deal with the same issues you described. my depression makes me feel alone, isolated and not having support system makes it even more crippling. even worse i just got out of a relationship that has made me feel worse and suicidal. i did turn to therapy and while it has not healed my wounds it's been nice to be able to vent to a compassionate non judgemental person. you mentioned you don't know how to get therapy. this is a great site for finding a therapist in your area: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us?tr=Hdr_Brand. You can sort by insurance and gender of the therapist. and it will also inform you on whether they are accepting new clients or not. i think therapy can be a great tool to start with. if cost is a factor or you have no insurance you can try peer groups, or contacting these resources to find what's available in your area: https://www.ifred.org/individual-support.

i wish you the best and if you ever just need to vent feel free to message me anytime. 

Hello, I know how you feel. I am looking for someone to talk to that understands me. I have a hard time communicating with others but don't know where else to turn. 

@ImfineSaveme  if you ever need to talk feel free to message me anytime. 

I can’t imagine anyone really knows how I feel truly but maybe this will help?   Is this what I am supposed to do?

Lilypad

i picked up on a few key phrases in your post...worthless, want to cry every day and tired.  I am able to identify with all of these. I am just hanging on to the end of my rope and like you I just don’t know what else to do. But in the past I have had clinical therapy, professional/personal and also Christian counseling through a local church. That last one was free of charge if you have that type of faith it might be something to look into. Faith has been hard for me through out my life but it did help me. 

My name is Nancy I am 35 years old I have one child he will be 11 in November I have struggled with depression and other mental illnesses all my life I have never really been a dependent person I have always had my mom to help me with making decisions but unfortunately she passed away 4 years ago so when my husband was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 3 years ago I had to face independence full force but it wasn't bad at first but now he can't walk or wipe himself or give himself a bath not that I'm complaining about having to do it for him that isn't the issue I have very bad social anxiety and I have to do all the shopping and talking to complete strangers and seeing him so depressed about not being to do what he used to like playing with our son or riding bikes with him it has made my depression so much worse I find myself pushing my physical and mental needs and issues aside for him and it is really taking a big toll on me I just want to support him and be there for him in every way I possible can I AM STRUGGLING CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!! 

Is there any way you can get anyone to give you 3 or 4 hours a week just to do something just for you even if it’s just to go by yourself to sit in a park??  Just you alone with your thoughts and MAKE them be alright thoughts look at the shape and color of individual leaves and the rocks. Just how pretty some every day things are!!  
and can you find games for children or young adults with limited mobility—check online for ideas that you can do with your son so your husband can play too. That way you are getting real family fun time even with your husbands illness. Making memories. Mind games even. I spy even in the living room. Or something like that. Just something to do as a family that gets around both of your conditions. Maybe that will help!  I hope so!  Good luck. 

@DiCross Thank you very much for your kind words and inspiration it is truly appreciated I will definitely take your suggestions and look into finding some activities we can do together as a family I hope you have a very blessed day

Saw! You made me smile!!  Hope it goes well.