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Can someone talk to me

@Tabatha yes, absolutely 

Ive always struggled with anxiety, depression, and ptsd but have recently been told by a doctor that im bipolar. I feel like Im losing my mind. It's super hard to feel in control, sometimes I cry, and sometimes I just get so mad. This is the first time I've ever gone on anything like this before so I don't know what to expect. People often mistake me for not feeling, when really it seems like I feel everything. My own emotions and my own brain is slowly driving me crazy it seems like. I dont know, I am just really tired of being alone

I made poor decisions this week my anger anxiety fear all got the best of me and now I put myself in a position where I lost my family my home .. everything that means the world too me … I feel so down and alone with no one in a hotel that’s so quiet I can’t stop thinking how did I get here .. I don’t know what to .. it’s so hard I’ve been crying and thinking why does this have to happen to me I try so hard .. but it’s still not enough .. what do I do now..

How do I get out of this situation

I'm here for both I'm always here to help and support and listen but also I would like someone to talk to so either or I'm here 

Hi everyone, 

New to the group. 

I have general anxiety,  panic attacks and depression.  And I live at home with mom and sister who have the same conditions.  Which makes it much more difficult to deal with because we're all driving each other crazy.  There are some good days but there have been a lot of bad days since I moved in with them a year ago. 

Moving out is not an option. 

I'll be starting counseling at the end of June.  The counselors are so busy with counseling other patients. 

I try to get up and do things to stay busy,  or go for a walk. 

Mom and sister are easily offended . Even when I try to be tactful and gentle,  they often get offended.  It's like walking on eggshells literally. 

Mom has major depression.  She has psychotherapy once a week.  I've tried to get her to agree to a joint counseling session but she declined saying that it would cut into her counseling time.  

I started taking Wellbutrin a month ago and feeling a bit better. But it feels like I'm trudging through cement sometimes,  since I'm trying to pull myself up from being depressed and yet I have my mom and sister who are depressed.  Mom is more profoundly depressed than my sister.  And my sister is more vulnerable because she has Downs Syndrome,  she is a sweetheart but inherited our family anxiety and depression.  She fortunately bounces back after she has a bad day. But I try to keep her positive with watching her favorite funny videos,  which helps her.  And she dances.  My little angel. 

Mom is a good person but she has old patterns that she never broke free from.  I wish I could help her as  she feels badly about herself.  It saddens me. 

I think once I start counseling I'll feel better able to handle all this down in the cement pit ,lacking confidence ,and lacking hope that things will get better.  

It's amazing how you can love your family but find them difficult to be around sometimes. I know I'm far from perfect and sometimes I know that I cause some of the upsets around here, but I'm trying hard to change my attitude when I notice that I'm irritable. Some days are good,  and those are the days I wonder how come we end up back in the pit again. 

Thanks for listening and I'll do my best to be a supportive listener to you all as well.  🤗🤗

Hi Tabatha, 

How are you doing?

I'm Jennie. New to the group. 

@paigekk, how are you doing this week?

Sending you support. 

This week I’ve been as positive as I can be .. I’ve been noticing all the small things that have been trying to hold me back and keep me in this cycle .. but I feel like I’ve been ignoring it all and finally moving forward into something new