Need someone to talk to/Listen to others

I have been dealing with depression for 7 years, ever since I was in middle school. I used to be bullied a lot because of the way I looked back then and most of the times I was usually lonely. It started getting worst for me, where I now have generalized anxiety disorder and I keep dealing with new symptoms everyday. It's so scary how I keep thinking there is something physically wrong with me, but in reality I'm fine since my doctor eases my mind and checks my health. I would really like to talk to someone who completely understands and would like to chat and help me out. I would appreciate someone reaching out and willing to know the symptoms I go through mostly. 

@Shanny1998 From someone who knows what it feels like, I am here for you. 

I'm suffering from bipolar depression my family won't talk to me that this is not my mother's been put into Alzheimer's sistercare I'm at my Wit's end I just need somebody to talk to and I understand thank you God bless

Need to talk to someone privately... ( would prefer a female) 

I think I have separation anxiety. I think it’s from past childhood trauma. My biological mom would leave me and my sister with strangers. Then in foster care no one gave me any attention because they just wanted my baby sister. Now I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for a little over a year and I get extremely sad and start crying anytime he leaves. Like this morning he told me he wanted to hangout with his friend on Sunday and I got so sad. Sunday’s are our one day that we get to spend the whole day together and I always look forward to it. We do live together but we both work every day. I want him to be able to hang out with his friends. I don’t know what’s wrong with me😩

I been dealing with so much. I started counseling.  I had a divorce after 6 yrs my husband told me he is gay. I loved him so much. 8 months later I'm dating someone new my ex husband  sits there says I loved you but I am gay I'd give it all up to be with you. He has done nothing but lie to me break my heart. The man I am with dating treats me like gold I love his faimly My ex husband's mom treated me like dirt. My depression is so bad lately I'm going to my doctor to try to get on meds. I quit my job things were so bad my depression got so bad I haven't wanted to get out of bed. I been having panic attacks.  I love the guy I am with now hes so kind. He even has taken the time to study about anxiety tried to figure out what works what doesn't. I have a appointment with a doctor next week to try and see what will help. I want to work bring in income. My boyfriend wants me to just chill get better its hard to be home to much time on my hands. After my divorce I have lost some friends.  I don't have very many dependable people in my life. My mom is passed and my dads in the nursing home. They had me late in life Im 33 I just hurt so bad for 6 yrs of marriage my time wasted I wanted to be a mom so bad. I know its not to late. I'm angry at my ex husband all the crap he did. Time heals my depression has been so bad I just want to feel ok again happy. I want to go back to college and work. 

Seeing a counselor and taking anti-depressant meds. Still sometimes get so sad and wish I could die, though I could never act on that. Have type 2 diabetes, 57, on disabililty. My mind keeps ruminating on every mistake and bad decision I've made over the decades that's left me with little savings.. I like writing fiction, though I've never got anyplace with it. Part would like to write for magazines, I just can't motivate myself to try anymore. Seems worse in summer and winter.

I would like to feel content, happy. Be able to move forward, right now I have no goals, and no idea what to do next. Just seems like everything I've done is wrong, why are these thoughts so hard to get over? I've talked with therapist and preacher, but they are still there.

Well i have ben tring to keep myself together it slowly comming to a end my boyfriend of 8 years has a 18 year old daughter that he met and had move in at 16 and sence then everything is going in a downword rool she wants it all about her and her dad she has a isue with my almost 9 year old daughter because my daughter has ADHD and is hard to handle alot of the time and she sais stupid little things to the 18 year old loke shes stupid or uggly stupid 2nd grader stuff and she gets affended but my 8 year old gets it from a 18 yearold and thats ok she has already tryed to make me and her father brake up so its just them even in the store we cant walk together because his daughter had to be rithe there if he stoped she would end up in his but she threatend to leave cause she had to stay home insted of go with her dad to work because she didnt get up for school. not my problem but she therw a fit and told her dad she wasnt going to stay here with me and my daughter so she thought tring to leave would change his mind.but he finly stuck to his word so far we will see how long this lasts i dont know howmuch more of this girl i can take b4 i loose my mind please help me understand what i am doing wrong

Today I really feel pushed away like an outsider … I’ve been trying to change so many things  in my life for the better but I think all the juggling is starting to get to me 

@lindsay Hello and welcome to the group. I think I share a similar experience as you. I don't seem to have an interest in things anymore, one difference, I often wonder if death would be in my favor. It just seems like everything is a mundane task, and I am glad when it is all over, then when bedtime comes, I dread having to go to sleep to wake up and do it all over again, even if I will not do much, just being present is overwhelming for me. The last time, I was on here was in 2019, encouraging others, I hope it helped, however, I still am feeling down.