I really don't feel like living - need support and to talk

Money Issues

My Fiancee and I have been together for 3 years. Sometimes he can be a bit Narcissistic but he makes things happen and has been the only one for me to understand. He doesn't have a bad motive for what he does, but sometimes he gets the God mentality. I'm struggling real bad with getting a job. We move from house to house and could've fixed our car a year and a half ago. If he doesn't fix things I have to because he spends all the money we get that other people give us to fix it. I don't want to leave him but I don't want to keep living like this either. He has a heart condition and could die any day because the hotter he gets the colder he gets because he has RH negative and is allergic to all Penicillin family. I am trying to get on with Teletech but our friend who we stay with kicks us out at night when his daughter is there and the house two ways down is barren with no electricity. What do I do? Broken and Broken. We don't have a car to get anywhere and we are stuck where we are. I'm so upset I don't want to leave him in his condition because he has helped me so much but at the same time he is draining us dry. I'm scared to even be on here talking about it. Please give good advice and don't hit on me. Thanks. 

Hi Katt,

I just want to start with I'm very sorry you have to experience this. I've experienced something similar in my past. Before I even try and pretend like I understand how you feel, I'd like to ask you a few question if you don't mind?

1. Are you still in love with him or are you staying out of guilt?

2. What do you mean by "Don't hit on me"? You have have issues with men hitting on you on this site?

Hang in there!

Bless Chi

No, I don't have issues with men hitting on me here but I didn't want a lot of feed to keep coming back here. He doesn't believe in outside opinions because they don't know what we go through. Also, it was out of love in the beginning. But we've been arguing a lot lately about money. I just don't know what to do. I love him but our lifestyle is tearing us apart. 

Feel free to message me here, I am available. to listen and be supportive.

Thank you

At the end of my rope. Unable to find employment, dealing with major depression and chronic back pain but can’t afford treatment or counseling with no income nor insurance.

Now my fiancé is angry with me for spending 30 minutes with my daughter who was having a hard time. My fiancé and I had an agreement that I’d discuss any visit to my daughter with her beforehand but she was out with friends. She sees what I did as a sign of betrayal and that she can’t trust me and is contemplating ending our relationship over it. 

I’m just so done trying anymore and I want nothing more than to just die. I can’t take living like this anymore.

I know it’s selfish but every minute of this is hell. Absolute hell. The pain both physical and emotional never stops. I know my kids will be well cared for and they don’t need me, and I’m tired of burdening my friends and family with my endless stream of failures. There seems to be no good end in sight.

Have no insurance no money my mom passed away 1 year ago I don't know what's wrong with me I find nothing interesting anymore I can't sleep at night I have uneasy feeling all the time I can't get comfortable feel like I have to move or rock my body I'm always tired I cry all the time for no reason my back hurts constantly I can't hardly do my job and feel like tomorrow is just going to be worse I have thoughts of taking my life cause the feeling I have are just to over bearing I need help and don't know what to do I feel so alone

Hi um ive never done counseling before but i have had the feeling of unimportance for many years and lately so many bad things have happened and i feel overwhelmed and scared but also that if the world is this bad for me now then how can it possibly ever change ive felt that no matter what i do im in a losing battle and i really need help because if i dont im afraid of the consequences.

I'm never enough, I'm used. Walked on. I'm not the person I used to be. I used to fight for whatever was right but now I just keep my mouth shut I go with it and I tell people what they want to hear just so they don't yell at me I hate everything I'm full of hatred I don't want to be here anymore. Not even enough for my own boyfriend and he's all that I have I don't have family they're all fake and hate me and I don't have friends because I can't keep them and of course just another example of me messing  up all the time I've been through hell and back and I had a fake smile the whole time will somebody please talk to me