How to balance chronic illness and work?

My struggle with depression took over my work life. I unfortunately lost my job may 1st 2019 and felt so hopeless that I attempted to take my own life on may 3rd 2019. Spent 34 days in ICU and have been recovering ever since. A huge mistake and I regret it every day. I now am seeking the help I need to live the best I can with the illness/ illnesses I have. I am stronger than I thought I was and getting better every day. 

@JamieShaw That is amazing and awesome!  Please know, that you are special and loved!

Thank you so much. That means the world to me.

I haven't been able to work. I've been on Social Security disability over 10 years now. I don't know how people deal with a chronic illness or illnesses and still work. Maybe they don't have a choice.  Disability sure doesn't match what you would make from working. 

It is a struggle every day. You have to be careful to take care of yourself, take your medications and perform well. 

Be safe, everyone. 

@JamieShaw i just read your story..  I am sorry this is a late response, I hope you're doing better, and I hope you know that you are loved and you are amazing!! 

@Horserider‍ thank you. That means the world to me. It really does I feel special when someone recognizes my struggle.

@JamieShaw awe sweetheart.  I hope you know that you're a special person and despite what you did in the past, it's in the past and you look towards the future!! 

I hope you're getting counseling,  I think that will help you tremendously.  But whatever you decide to do, know this... you are a strong person and have a lot to give!!!

Stay strong and healthy!!

I was diagnosed with bipolar at 30 years old. Before that I was treated for depression and I had some really good days. I taught school orchestra 7th through 12th grades for 25 years.  I took a sabbatical after my 9th year and rested and recovered.  My first 9 years I was mostly manic so things went well. I was very confident and the students performed well. My last 4 years I was very depressed and my quality of teaching suffered. I was very glad to retire. Three days after I retired I broke my back in 3 places, and again in one place the next year. This helped put an end to my violin performing. It is just too painful. 

Hi.  I suffer from clinical depression and it hurts to not be able to live the life I was ment to live. I have bouts of this and it seems to take forever to control.  I want to smile, work, engage, wake up and have a cup of coffee and feel relaxed, vaca, go to church, be with grandchildren and fulfill my dreams. Will this return to me??