Pain Alone scared scarred and afraid
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So I have been diagnosed with at least 5 different mental conditions of course anyone experienced in the mental health system probably knows that once labeled it's pretty much impossible to remove that label. Pretty much every medicine and treatment they are willing to prescribe to poor people has almost the complete opposite effect on me that they tell me. Antidepressants make me tend to be extremely suicidal, something you would think that an educated halfway intelligent Doctor would pick up on after the first 10 attempts right? Apparently not. In fact they actually increase the doses when I start to report suicidal ideas. WoW! ok maybe I was not to bright either because it took many years for me to realize what was going on myself. So after 31 years of experience in the crazy field I finally realized that my only hope was to take charge of my own treatment plan and with such incompetent uncaring unintelligible so called doctors about it was clear if I was to survive this I must manipulate them into prescribing me what I think might help based off my own research. Unfortunately after a decade I now know medication is not an option. I recently lost my therapist after long term treatment had been going on. I was starting to feel a bit of hope that I could learn how to beat my mind into submission and take control again. When she tld me she was leaving that afternoon I had 2 blackout panic attacks and another one the next morning. Then of course they called about ECT and oh boy was I ready. Not to knock ECT it helped me in the past but at this point I was banking everything on therapy. Learning coping tools and ways to manage my extremely intense mood swings and emotions. All this based off the months of working thru everything with this therapist but now what? I am scared and all alone. Somehow I have managed to keep journaling but s my new therapist able to just jump? in or the better question am I?
I am sorry about your long difficult journey to get to where you are today and then to have your therapist leave you. But I think the important thing for you to remember is that you are the one learning and managing your emotions. Yes, it is helpful that you had a steady therapist, but there will come another one. You are able to continue the work you have been doing, it is dependent on you and not the therapist (although, they do help guide). I think it's great you have kept journaling. You should give this therapist a chance and trust that you are able to keep progressing on yourself.
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How is it going? I also was not doing well on my medication. It helped a little bit, but overall I don't think it was better for my health. I did a lot of my own research, and I feel like I will know my own body better than someone not living in it, you know?
Did you find a new therapist? I also went through a few. Not efficient, but I think it is all part of the process. I have been with my more recent therapist 3 years now. It is going well, we are finally in a good pattern and it's wayyy better than it was once I started with them. Everything just takes so much time. But, I guess that is the definition of life..
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