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Posted on 1/15/20 8:47 AM
This is my first time ever really reaching out to any support group. I've known I've had anxiety and depression for years. A little background- my parents divorced when I was four and I stopped seeing my biological father at the age of 15 because he was very verbally abusive and degrading. My brother struggles with addiction. I am both a perfectionist and then I can be so imperfect the next. I excelled in school with a 4.0 gpa. There were times when I sought help from doctors when I was at a low but then I either never took the medication I was prescribed or never finished counseling. I'm not sure why. Most days I sleep for thirteen hours a day when I don't have to work and on my days off I usually don't get out of bed. I don't want to be like this. It's almost like I have anxiety in the summer and depression in the winter. I want help, but don't necessarily take the steps to make anything better...I kinda just keep hoping it will go away on its own. I don't have really anyone to talk to that understands the pain I go through. There's not really a reason I'm depressed I don't think, it's just sort of a feeling of nothingness.
Beginning of the discussion - 1/22/20Not knowing what to do. https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/not-knowing-what-to-do-1471
Posted on 1/22/20 4:25 PM
@Mandi45 Hi Mandi,
I feel like I can understand your feelings of being sad for no reason. Have you thought of trying counselling? I'm on antidepressants, but I don't want to recommend any medications before you've talked to someone to really find out if it's a chemical problem or an emotional one. In my case it was both.
In any case I'm sorry you feel so bad.
Posted on 1/26/20 5:22 AM
I recently got in a fight about responsibilities. My step mom always curses me out anytime I have anything to say back. She talks shit about my father and me. Then says everyone she knows has those responsibilities and that I don’t and it’s time for me to grow up. She says I play the victim all the time but if she would just leave me alone then she wouldn’t have a problem with me. This is the tip of the ice berg, my dad is optimistic so he always tries to end are arguments so I’m the one he always tells to stop arguing and he says I need to just let her argue till she stops. I feel like I never get my views out but she gets to say all this shit about me with no consequences. I have constant tension between her. She’s been married to my dad for 3 years and I wish he divorced her because she’s so high maintenance and always gets pissed when something is against her. She always says I do nothing, she also called me a narcissist but it might come off that way because I don’t respect her anymore and I want her out of my life
Posted on 1/31/20 4:10 AM
I have alot going on and I don't know how to handle it anymore. Im tired of it too. I have this ex who I loved but I don't think he loved me he has this girl bestfriend and shes like has the perfect body and I've always been jealous of her and I hate that I can't be like her because thats probably why he broke up with me because I'm not pretty and I don't have a skinny waist and I have a hipdip and i have thick legs and I just hate my body and I just wish I was pretty and good enough for people and I just want to starve myself but I just feel like its not gonna work. But it's killing me on the inside and I hate the way I look and I just wanna look like the other girls but I can't and I hate it and just wanna be good enough.
Posted on 2/11/20 5:27 PM
@22alivia22 I'm so sorry you're feeling that way. Don't hate yourself, darling, because no matter what you look like you are a beautiful human being and your life is precious. No one is the world is like you, you have something no one else can have or ever will. If you want to diet and exercise and lose some weight you can if that will make you feel better, but you especially need to fix your heart. Do you have anyone to talk to?