Struggling to mask my depression in my everyday life

@AnonymousNeek I definitely relate to how you feel. Have you talked to your family about how you're feeling? Maybe they can tell that's something's wrong like you said but they don't know how to react? Or what about opening up to your friend, if she's been your friend for a long time I'm sure she'll understand. It can't feel good keeping everything inside. 

Hi I feel like I cant handle simple things. I just want to do my crafts. My husband is an alchoholic. He was sober for 10 yrs and started again. He's not violent he works pays his bill. I just don't like when he drinks my mother was an alcoholic my brothers my sisters but all have  stopped years ago I never drank or did drugs no matter what I he won't stop its all up to him I know that.I want to leave him i retired in 2017 and I just want to do what I want enjoy being retired . Not cook not do housework I feel trapped especially more now with the pandemic I more depressed that ever before