Can't get out of the cycle of negative feelings

I'm at a standstill. It seems like no matter how good things seem to be going (self-care, support system, etc.) it doesn't overcome the feelings of loneliness and impending doom. Part of me is trying to accept that this is what reality feels like. That life itself is just sad. Little glimpses of light peaking through the clouds to let us know that there are good things, but are just out of reach. It feels like once you jump off a conveyor belt of conformity, you're still stuck in a system of some sort. I don't know what to tell myself to get out of this way of thinking/feeling. 

Hello @hvi888‍, thank you for opening this discussion and sharing with us. I'm sorry you're feeling this way, it can be really hard sometimes to get out of a sort of cycle of negative thinking. Let me tag some other members who can possibly share with you.

Hi everyone, how are you doing? Do you ever find yourself having a hard time to see the positive in things? What helps you to break out of this mindset?
@bbrooke‍ @Wendyh2000‍ @Kylekitty‍ @Lewis_26‍ @ChloeMoore‍ @izzysmom831‍ @paigekk‍ @KitsuiKaiju‍ @Andreasam_20‍ @Hollywood8084‍ @Tabatha‍ @Danilola‍ @SicknTired‍ @sarae253‍ @Kingquan12‍ @Sherryg‍ @Terry406‍ 

Feel free to share with us here, we're all here to support one another!

Take care,
Courtney

@hvi888 I totally get what you mean. I think we're conditioned as a society to fit into little boxes - to act a certain way, think a certain way, dress a certain way, etc. etc. And when you break the mold or don't fit into the box or label or whatever they've decided to pin on you you're labeled as "different" or "weird" or whatever. It can really get to you. Happiness and good things aren't out of your reach, you deserve them too! Try not to let society or other people around you make you feel like you don't deserve to be happy. You do.

I find myself struggling with a circle that I can’t seem to get out of every weekend it’s been the same thing over and over same everything it’s like I’m stuck on a roller coaster the keeps  going and going … this last week I’ve been dedicated to break out of it … I’m done drinking done smoking done with  anything that leaves me tied to this cycle of hell and depression and let down … I’ve put myself and those close to me in this cycle for too long and hurt those who mean the most to me … I’m dedicated to this change with everything I have .. I just hope it’s not too late 

So I went on a mini staycation with my lil family at a nice hotel not far from where I live. We swam ate pizza watched movies had some fun..but something wasn't clicking for me. I had to keep reminding myself to smile act happy. I don't know if it cause I have been in the dark so long I don't want to see the light but damn I feel so empty. Soo dead Insude like no matter what I do....I'm too far gone. Forgot what not feeling like this feels like if that makes any Sense.

I’m sitting here fighting the same battle that I’ve been fighting I feel like I fucked up today not really feel but I know I did and I been  so strong how can I be so dumb