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Posted on 3/25/21 6:41 AM
I’ve been struggling with Generalized Anxiety, Social Anxiety, and depression for most of my life but I wasn’t formally diagnosed until I was 18. I’m 20 not and a freshman in college and I can’t help but feel like a failure. It’s hard for me to even get out of my bed to eat or go to the bathroom and I only make myself get up when I have to go to classes in person. I’m afraid of death and I could never off myself, but sometimes I wish I could just sleep and never wake up.
Beginning of the discussion - 3/25/21I wish I could just die in my sleep, but I’m not suicidal https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/i-wish-i-could-just-die-in-my-sleep-but-im-not-3193
Posted on 3/25/21 6:01 PM
Hello @BLeeH26, thank you for opening this discussion and for sharing what you've been going through. Please know that the community is here to support you. You're not alone.
If these feelings you've been having ever feel like they're too much to handle, please don't hesitate to reach out for help, the National Suicide Prevention Hotline is free and is available 24/7 by phone at 1-800-273-8255 or by chat here.
Hi everyone, can any of you relate to how BLeeH26 is feeling? Has your mental illness ever made you feel like a "failure" or made your lose your motivation in life? How did or do you cope with these feelings?
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Posted on 3/25/21 6:27 PM
I have the same problem i have been diagnosed with Anxiety,PTSD, and Depression @BLeeH26 you can inbox me we can help each other get through it❤️
Posted on 3/27/21 3:33 AM
I feel this way most days. I stay so disappointed and upset with myself (I’m 30 with two kids and still working on a bachelor’s degree). I also don’t feel a worry that I would ever physically try to CS, but I still feel like dying is the only way I can escape the war and pain in my mind.
Posted on 4/2/21 12:25 AM
Many days for no apparent reason I struggle with feelings of less worth to the point I dont want to BE. It seems they just pop in and out, no warning. Knock me right off game.
Posted on 4/2/21 8:42 AM
I can definitely relate. I want to hide from the world sometimes and don't want to cope. I know I use things to hide. But I'm working on it. For me, depression requires constant effort to not isolate within myself. I force myself to get out, share, and try to change my thinking. Sure feels dark and yucky at times. But I cant afford to dwell in my head about my depression. I will get more depressed. And you know, all those lies my mind tells me, are mostly not true. No, its not easy. But I dont want to die. Glad your here.
Posted on 4/2/21 9:11 AM
I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder as well and I can totally relate on what you're going through. My head is always filled with negative thoughts, thinking about death when I'm young and healthy. Anxiety sure loves tricking the mind a lot and scare you even more when everything is most likely okay. People who never experienced anxiety before, thinks it's very simple to overcome it. It's definitely difficult to deal and cope with it alone, if you never had help before on it. Whenever I experience it, I just want to shut myself away from everyone, as nobody seems to understand what I'm going through when I talk to them about how I'm feeling, they just think I'm crazy. It's really depressing. As bad as anxiety can get, don't let it completely control your life. I do recommend some meditation videos, since most of them work really well. I really hope you can overcome your anxiety soon, I'm still learning myself how to cope with it, take care.