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Posted on 6/27/21 2:57 AM
How do I start this well... I don't know if I'm depressed but I honestly could care less if I died tomorrow keep in mind I'm 17 I graduated high-school and I graduated being nothing but a loser never done anything for myself always doing what my parents tell me to do besides just eating chips and being fat, my parents want me to be perfect but they always doubt me because anything I do is wrong for them,always arguing anything I do I keep hearing them in brain telling me I'm wrong my entire existence is honestly meaningless I'm not even sad anymore I'm just empty to the point where I don't care about anyone or anything anymore maybe there something wrong with me but all I know is that i waisted my life and I just want to be alone far away from anyone and try to be happy with myself I know what I want but I will never have it cause of my life and I know in future I'm going to just work, work and work till I'm finally retired and close to death, I don't even know who I am anymore i don't have a personality I'm always fake even around my parents my life is is a big lie at this point I'm only living to be something I'm not I have been doing this for years since I was little so I don't know who I am or who I should have been just living up everyone expectations I'm just done living this lie
Beginning of the discussion - 6/28/21I don't even know who I am anymore https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/i-dont-know-anymore-3499
Posted on 6/28/21 6:19 PM
@Abb123 Hey, I'm really sorry you're having such a rough time with your parents. You're definitely better off here. I know it may not seem like it, but your parents would be destroyed without you. You're definitely not a waste and haven't wasted your life, like you said you're only 17, you have so much life ahead of you. Why don't you think you'll be able to get what you want in life? Stay strong, we're here for you on here, you can get through this!
Posted on 7/5/21 10:13 PM
All I can say, at this point, is I feel you and understand. I am a totally different person today than I was fifteen years ago when I feel I had a purpose in life. I do not recognize myself anymore. And do not know if I ever will.