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Posted on 6/5/19 4:08 AM
Today is my first day on this group and I just wanted to start of by saying that I feel completely lost, stagnant and bored with my life. For the past 8 years o haven’t worked I have been looking after my son who’s had some learning disabilities. They are getting better but now right before the end of school year he’s being diagnosed for possible autism. I haven’t felt with his behavior problems I could work full or part time. When he was younger and went to school 3 hours per day, he spend the afternoon in therapies and I didn’t feel I could work. Now that he’s started 1st grade I have been looking for work on and off now for almost 9 months and have found nothing. This is a scary situation. I am bored and need to feel useful. Currently taking cymbalta every day and recently that hasn’t helped the depression.
Beginning of the discussion - 6/6/19Feeling lost due to a new chapter in life https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/feeling-lost-due-to-a-new-chapter-in-life-1065
Posted on 6/6/19 8:25 AM
I just joined maybe 5 minutes ago and saw your post. I battle with depression everyday and understand the wanting of being useful, but there’s maybe some words that I can share with you.
Sometimes we look past the importance of just being there for someone in the present moment, whether your child, a family member, a loved one.. I don’t know you, but I can see that you aren’t giving up and that’s being useful... being bored is where you can create moments. Maybe find new ways to create opportunities. Create new methods of putting yourself out there. Keep your chin up and I know a great opportunity will come along. I wish you and your son the best. You are both perfect don’t ever forget that.
Posted on 6/7/19 5:52 PM
yes I have volunteered at the school and I have been asked to do a couple of paid studies which I have enjoyed. I get it mostly from my husband, and he’s got a great job and I realize I shouldn’t feel bad because I worked non stop from the age of 19 to 42 without a break. I just feel I have no say with money and that if I spend something small he jumps all over my case. Then after he does this he gets deliveries in the mail for himself. He also gives his parents money which I don’t mind but if he takes it out on me I get angry. It’s annoying as heck.
Posted on 6/8/19 2:26 AM
@Lena0422 hey I totally understand someone do that feeling I went to detox two weeks ago and almost died of a seizure a week ago it’s called mandolin Bay and West Palm Beach I try to get help and I am most died Broke into a seizureI feel like doing the right thing is Doing the wrong thing if I’m a freaking die from it and by the way I am and drug addict alcoholic and 28in trying to change I’m like going crazy I’m lost I’m confused it’s like I feel like I’m not useful I feel like I have no purpose and I miss getting high an I’m driving husband crazy that is my first instinct now he thinks I’m always high it’s fuking annoying an have jo idea what todo in detox I’ opened my eyes to s lot😥😥😥😥😥
Posted on 6/8/19 6:14 AM
Hey Lena!! And hello Rose! 😊
So I read your update Lena and your post as we’ll Rose! and Lena I’m very proud you kept your chin up and glad that your getting these opportunities that you deserve 😊 so Lena just wanted to say this! About the money part of what’s going on! So my opinion on the matter is that being in a relationship.. marriage.. engaged.. even just dating.. is that money in any situation is a privilege and not an entitlement between the both of you.. maybe sit down with him and converse why these things are going on and let him understand that it annoys you so.. you have a very large say in money because it’s based on the teamwork that you both do for each other and for your child.. Respectfully speaking he does make more as you said.. but it’s the work you’ve done outside of his career that allows him to succeed in it happily.. I’m very happy for you Lena I truly am and know that I’m proud of you for keeping your head held high!!!!
ROSE!!!! I didn’t forget about you!! Promise!! So reading your post I can say that I don’t know the aftermath of detox.. But I can say that it’s a battle of will power that you are going to have to look deep down in yourself to position yourself into a better future.. the feeling of being lost and confused I deal with everyday so I know what I’m going to say might help you.. ACTION is CHARACTER.. my father told me this way too many times for me forget lol and what I mean by this in your situation is that you shouldn’t delve fast into getting everything done.. My opinion for you is to write everything down that first you need to accomplish to put yourself in a stable path.. and on another list write the things you’d like.. spend a week if you need to and one by one complete the things you need to do.. your husband isn’t mad at you.. he isn’t angry.. he’s just worried and I know that he loves you with every ounce of his heart.. but on his point of view I’d say what would help you out is to show him and yourself that you are putting yourself back together.. sometimes being lost and confused is a good thing.. because that struggle is where life has meaning.. and only in that struggle can we forgive our past and embrace our future! Best of luck to you Rose!!
I’ll say it again.. You both are perfect!! And it’s because of the imperfections of your pasts that have made you willing to change for the better that are what make you perfect in my eyes!
Posted on 6/11/19 3:19 AM
I am lucky and have a very supportive wife. She has had depression now and then so she knows what it feels like. But somehow she pulls herself out and is back to "normal" for now. She also is a stroke survivor with bi-plegic(?) paralyzed on her left side. Stuck in a wheelchair. severe pain. Yet she has good days n good times. She's both my inspiration and a contributer to my depression/anxiety.
Posted on 6/23/19 12:34 AM
was wondering if anyone has tried St Johns wort and if it’s helped anyone?