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Posted on 2/9/21 12:53 AM
I've been dealing with depression for several years. This past year I thought I had managed to actually overcome it. I started to focus more on myself and do what I need to make myself happy. Then BOOM!! It's like I was just hit with a massive wrecking ball and all my confidence I had just left. I stopped focusing on me in a positive way, and went back to isolating myself, letting myself go again. I go to work, go home, go to bed. I have thoughts of ending it all. I have tried in the past. I can't seem to get it back. I look at myself and I am so disappointed but I can't seem to make a change. I honestly don't know what to do with my life anymore.
Beginning of the discussion - 2/9/21Can't get away from my depression https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/cant-get-away-3037
Posted on 2/9/21 9:22 PM
@Michelle1229 Hey, I feel you on this. Has COVID had a role in it do you think or was it something else? I know for me I was doing pretty well until COVID hit and what seemed like everything that was good about life was cut off. Try not to be to hard on yourself. Try to take things one day at a time and take things as they come, it's all we can really do right now. You're not alone in this!
Posted on 2/10/21 8:02 AM
@Michelle1229 sounds like we're in the same boat. I'm going through a depression episode right now. 6wks ago I quit my job. I just woke up one morning feeling empty! I couldn't get out the bed and that is how I quit my job. Laying in bed for two weeks. Only to get up for the bathroom or food. So now even though I'm still depressed, I do get up snd do things around the house. I just don't go out. And I've isolated myself from my family.
Posted on 2/10/21 10:57 AM
@jasmine1092 covid wasn't the cause. I've always struggled with depression. Back in May I actually left my husband, and we were separated for almost 2 months. In those months I learned to take care of my physical and mental health. I was doing really well. We ended up getting back together but things were really good. But then I found things I wished I hadn't. They made me like I wasn't enough, unwanted, ugly, and all the old habits came flooding back and I've struggled trying to get back out of them. I just don't know where to start.
Posted on 2/10/21 11:01 AM
@tcoley I'm so sorry. Depression is horrible. It can literally just kind of gradually sneak up on you and turn your entire life upside down. I haven't isolated myself really. I go to work but only because I know if I don't I'll loose everything. Work seems to be the one place that I can actually just forget about things for awhile. I've even started coloring (yes I'm a big kid) so it helps take my mind off of things when I'm just idle. Don't want to go anywhere or do anything. Maybe you could find something like that to help keep your mind off of things even if its only for a few hours. It helps but it's definitely not a cure.
Posted on 2/11/21 8:07 AM
You tried and you can't help that. But it doesn't mean that you actually can't do it. Stop pushing up yourself in depression. As you said, focusing on yourself didn't work well. You can try another way. If you're in trouble which you can't talk to others. You worried about something, You're dealing with yourself. Take a help of your closed ones and talk about it. If you feel shy to talk to. Talk to [link removed by Community Manager for violation of community standards]. It is today's best and latest technology, innovated for mental health patients. It helps people to overcome mental illness and mixed emotions.