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Posted on 2/10/21 8:57 AM
I’ve currently been dealing with depression for the last 3 months and thought I have over came it. My life was starting to get back on track but it hit me again harder than ever. Recently it’s been hard for me to continue my studies at college because I’ve blocked my self out from the world. I haven’t reached out to anyone because I am too scared they won’t understand me. I sit in my room in the dark mourning to get up to use the bathroom or to eat. It has gotten so bad that I had thought about suicide but could never bring my self to do it. Being in this darkness it feels never ending you’d think it couldn’t get worst but it just does. I’d really appreciate anyone who knows of anything that could help I’ve blocked social media out of my life to focus on my self and it’s helped slightly. If anyone else knows of anything else I will be willing to try because I feel if this darkness keeps growing inside of me I don’t know what will happen next.
Beginning of the discussion - 2/12/21Blocking everything out of my life because of depression https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/block-out-depression-3057
Posted on 2/12/21 6:09 PM
@aj598598 Hey, how are you doing? I know that feeling of wanting to block everything out and just curl into yourself. I think getting off social media is definitely a good way to start, there's a lot of toxic stuff on there and sometimes it can just make us feel bad about ourselves. I know it's hard and it's not the best season with winter and all, but honestly what helps me sometimes to get out of my head and my negative space is to literally get up and leave and get outside. Just going out and walking around for a bit and thinking or listening to music really helps me clear some space in my head. Maybe that will help you a bit? I know it's hard, but stay strong, you can get through this!
Posted on 2/14/21 3:16 AM
@jasmine1092 thank you for your response. I went on a walk today and stayed out for hours because it honestly made me feel better. Thank you for your help!
Posted on 2/17/21 12:52 AM
I am avoiding everything and am lower than low. Way too much is going on I am overwhelmed and am getting nothing done that I should.
Posted on 2/21/21 4:56 AM
This past week my serious boyfriend has blocked me from his life (due to some serious issue that he says is happening). It was a complete 180 from how he has been since we have been talking/dating. Being ghosted by someone is so emotionally damaging. The day after he officially blocked me from communication, my grandmother died. I was not able to see her service due to me living many states away and COVID rules. Oh, another thing is, I am supposed to be moving next month to the state where my boyfriend lives, my daughter and I. I'm changing my job location and city due to us making a life together. Now I'm having such a difficult time handling the ghosted situation, my grandma passing, and now my daughter and I moving to a place alone. The depression has settled in. Most days I awake early, but cannot get out of bed until hours later. I don't want to workout, take care of myself, and I barely eat because it makes me sick. I don't want to be around people, and I try to be happy around my daughter, but it's difficult. I'm so ashamed and embarrassed to let my best friend or family know of what is happening.