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Posted on 7/30/20 7:00 AM
I feel the need to have someone at all times. In Feb, a 4 and a half relationship i was in abruptly ended. Ever since then, i would try and attach myself to anyone who is willing. Problem is, if they decide to stop talking to me (which is often) i get super depressed. I can get attached after one day, and thats my problem. Then itll end a few days later, and thats when depression hits. I dont know what or how to fix it. It eats me alive every night. Lying there, feeling empty and lonely.
Beginning of the discussion - 8/1/20Dealing with attachment issues https://www.carenity.us/forum/depression/living-with-depression/attachment-issues-2275
Posted on 8/1/20 7:09 AM
I know how you feel. My husband of 8 years just walked out on me and our 3 kids while 2 were on vacation. When the other was gone for the night I would go as far as taking the batteries out of the clocks because I couldn't stand the ticking. I've spent every day and every night crying while wide awake because I'm scared to death and alone and it eats at me. I used to be a strong, social, independent woman and now I feel as though I have to have someone, anyone, with me. Even if it's just sitting next to me doing nothing. I cant be alone. It scares me. I often wonder what it feels like to have someone want to be near me. Just having me sit next to the being enough. I get terrified, shaking, puking, crying... it's the stupedist thing I've ever done and I dont know how to stop it and cant control myself. I'm sorry you feel the way you do.