The feeling of loneliness

I do. Something I recently learned is that I feel more alone when I’m with those who don’t care and more alone when I’m not with the ones who love me. I’m sorry you feel alone. I send hugs and love. But you are never alone as much as you feel. I care for you and I am always here for you if you ever want or need of a friend. But yes I do. I do all the time feel alone. I can relate and I understand. 

Yes. I feel like that all the time. I wish I can find the motivation to go out and do things but seems  like home is my safe zone. I want to find the desire to do things again. My coworkers just invited me to the movies and the first thing I can think is.....”how do I turn it down now?” Since it hasn’t been the first time they’ve invited me out. Just know I care for you and wish you a long life of happiness. 

Littleles 

@Littleles‍ I feel like we are similar... When I get invited out places, I too think about how I can turn it down. I will usually accept and then figure out how to turn it down later and then stay inside the day I Turn it down. It is now like I am doing something else. Then knowing that everyone is out and I again am inside, I feel lonely.

This must be catching.  I knew I was doing the same thing but never put it out there as being depressed.  

I don't even let it get to the point of an invitation. I've been having trouble answering the phone. I'll pick up if it's one of my mental health team but my personal friends I isolate from. I don't seem to have the energy to talk to them

     I literally don't have any friends.  It was too hard being around people that just don't understand.  I don't even spend time around family because they don't get it either.  I find it easier to deal with this alone, rather than being around people who will just expect me to be what I can't, for their comfort, which only makes me feel even worse because it really highlights how much more different I really am.  Is my way healthy?  Probably not.  But it does help me manage the downward spirals, yes.

I too had been feeling this way when people called but lately i try to pick up one call and work on it whether to talk, go out for lunch, anything she asks i try to say yes.

So far it has been working.  Let me give it a chance.