Need someone to talk to/Listen to others

Hey I just really need someone. I don't have anyone to talk to and I can't go to therapy. I've struggled with depression all my life but this past year has been the worst of it. I really don't know where to start or what to say. Honestly, If someone's reading this and you're going through some hard times too maybe we could help each other. I just wanna sleep at night. I wanna be comfortable and okay with my mom or any adult figure telling me they love me. I wanna stop being angry and terrified all the time. I wanna be able to look forward to tomorrow. Someone please just help me. Give me a hand to hold so I can hold yours too.

@Thebosss1 

You're not alone.  I feel like I am so lost and misplaced and alone in this world.  Sometimes it's hard to keep going.  Anything you want to talk about please know I'm here

@Y00min 

You're not alone.  Why are you scared ? 

@Soxxx13 Cause in my life it feels like the more I know about the world n life in general the more mistakable I am. I don't have any plans for my future. I'm stuck in a constant battle with myself. I'm scared of myself, the world, and knowing that that one thing I do wanna do with my life ain't gonna work out. I'm already on the edge tryna stop myself from givin up on life completely. The only thing right now that keeps me going is waiting for my future in hopes that maybe I succeed. If I don't I know I'm not gonna be able to stand shit much longer. It's just suffocating. I know my life ain't gonna amount to shit in the end. I hardly have anyone to live for n I don't know how to just live for myself. I guess I'm scared cause I'm hanging by a thread n the world seems to just want me to let go,

@Y00min‍ 

It breaks my heart to read the words that you've written because I like to feel every single one of them and it just breaks my heart that someone else has to feel the pain that I feel I wish that I could take it all the way from you and make everything better I honestly don't know why I keep going I struggle everyday with it and I try to reach out for help but it seems like the more I try to reach out the more withdrawn I get so I'm feel like I'm running out of options and I'm scared but if I could do anything to help you I would I would do anything to help you even just talking to you at any time and I don't mean to sound mean or rude but you make me feel like I'm not so alone on a more positive note I want you to know that the way that you right you seem like a very very bright person and very smart I hope that I hope that you will see your value because I know that if you are reaching out for help you're an awesome person cuz it takes a lot to me that

These last past months have been real hard on me. I feel myself not my regular self. It feels like the more that I try to tell somebody how I feel it gets taken the wrong way. I have been trying to fight the depression but more and more everyday it feels like it is winning. I’m hurting mentally and emotionally but no one sees. It’s been days I have been ready to give up but I try to keep going . Sometime I wish it would just stop . I struggle daily to get my happiness back I just feel so numb it’s killing me inside

I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Anxiety, post concussive syndrome, ptsd and along with all of this always have this feeling of self harm/ suicide for out my whole life but recently I’ve been wishing that I go to sleep and never wake up. I’ve scratched, cut myself , pulled my hair out, over eat, paranoid and just want to stay in bed all day & night. I have a feeling that my bf has been emotionally and verbally abusing me. Yesterday I went to my credit union to overdraft while still paying off my overdraft loan & I didn’t phrase my words right & was told I couldn’t & started to freak out & started to cry & instead of being understanding he yelled at me which didn’t help me and I have to admit that I have messed up and still do but he just yells at me and makes me fill even worse. I have been thinking of leaving him  and I do have a place to go but I don’t want to leave my dogs and rabbit behind. I just don’t know what to do I feel just lost and broken

@HelpMePlease I understand, I have fought depression on and off all of my life.   Now it’s worse than ever.  I feel like I am about to lose everything.  I feel worthless.  If it was not for my family needing me I would not be here typing this.  They don’t deserve to have to deal with what I really want to do.  I am tired.   We just have to keep fighting.   Every day.   Every hour.   Fight 

SAME! I love my life but I hate myself!

I could really use someone to talk to, I’ve struggled with depression most of my life and things have gotten really hard recently