Need someone to talk to/Listen to others

Hey guys, not that anyone cares. but i’m actually dealing with depression and anxiety and i just feel so worthless and unloved even tho i’m always surrounded by people. i feel like such a disappointment and i also deal with self harm and it’s just been getting really hard. again, i’m sorry for bothering anyone.

Going through a medication change.  Coming off of cymbalta back onto zoloft.  My current PA is following protocol having me totally stop cymbalta which is a very short acting SNRI, 12 hr half life, and starting zoloft which is a very long acting SSRI, upto 6 weeks to have an effect.  I can literally feel my serotonin levels crashing.  My negative thoughts and dewlling on my many past failures is almost constant.  I'm waking up in the middle of the night dwelling on them.  This is how I felt in '93 when I was first diagnosed.  I hate this but the PA wont budge.  It looks to be a crappy few weeks.   I just needed to vent.  Any comments welcome.

Forgot to say she also started me on 50mg when my dose before was 100mg.

Hey everyone.

Im a transgender male who struggles with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, depression, and tics. Ive been hospitalized once and had to do DBT for a year or so. Ive had so much help and I thought i was getting better but all my negative feelings are coming back. I have no idea how to function on my own and feel worthless and stupid. School is so difficult and I dont know how to get help. My parents are wary of doctors and such, so I have no support from them. I have no one to talk to and I dont know how to reach out to people. I think I have some unresolved feelings related to my race and adoption, but I cant talk about it to anyone. I just feel alone.

@Fred l9  hey, i'll talk to you :) feel free to say whatever you need

@itsalexplease well thank u for wanting to hear me.im sorry for your whole situation.That is terrible.but it doesn’t matter what you prefer to be.just always remember u are a human being and are worthy of love.dont let anyone tell u otherwise.people can be so cruel.they don’t think before they speak and words hurt sometimes worse train pain itself.u just be u and don’t care what others think.if  they don’t expect who u are they are ignorant ass holes.just love your self and all will fall into place.I hope this helps u somehow.and u take away something positive from this conversation.someone loves u somewhere all day and every day. ✌️ 

I don’t understand we as human beings how we can hurt one another so badly. and then just walk away and go about their day like nothing happened. Sometimes I know I should just man up and suck every day life up and deal with it.But sometimes somebody does something to me so unbelievably mean disrespectful and just wrong it makes me so angry. And that is where I think my depression truly comes from from just being let down by mankind every day day in day out seeing all the things that happened to people death and destruction everywhere it seems like no one gives a shit anymore.

I’ve been sober from alcohol for 13 years and I find it harder and harder every day to resist picking up a bottle of Jack Daniels just to get out of my mind for A short while. But I know it’ll all be waiting for me when I come to in the morning all the shit stacked up will still be there waiting for me.

@Lee__R  how do I stop hearing her screaming? When will I stop smelling and tasting chlorine? Will I ever not see his little body blue lifeless while CPR was done? Will the night terrors ever go away? Everyone expects me to be strong! No one seems to notice I'm falling apart 

I need advice i feel lost and unsure of where i am at in life.my fiance has cheated on me and blames it on me.he secretly still talks to her.i barely can sleep or eat he makes me feel like i can't live without him that he will never do it again.and i always forgive him.im tired of being hurt.i need advice please.

You deserve respect and love. He’s not giving those to you.  Stay strong and kick him to the curb.