I really don't feel like living - need support and to talk

@Hidden username You could try volunteering. Find something that you love to do and maybe it can lift your spirits up

@Hidden username this really helped me in a way I can't express. Thank you! 

@Hidden username I completely agree. The delay in blogging prevents a real time discussion.  It's kind of frustrating exposing your vulnerabilities and having them just sit there for a few weeks. Lol. I would definitely participate more if there was a chatroom. 

For those of you who may have Line app, my I.D. is pinny76.  Add me if you like someone to talk to or just shoot the breeze. Who knows, may get enuff of us to make our own chatroom.

Hi everyone - while ideally no one would suffer from suicidal thoughts, depression can trigger such thoughts for some to occur. Bethe1to.com (Be the one to help save a life) has great information for those dealing which such thoughts on how to create a SAFETY PLAN in advance to help deal with such difficult moments - Please read below.

Feel free to share your thoughts on this safety plan idea.

SAFETY PLAN

Suicidal thoughts can seem like they will last forever – but for many, these thoughts and feelings pass. Having a plan in place that can help guide you through difficult moments can make a difference and keep you safe. Ideally, such a plan is developed jointly with your counselor or therapist. It can also be developed with a Lifeline counselor who can help you write down actions to take and people to contact in order to feel safe from suicide.

In general, a safety plan is designed so that you can start at step one and continue through the steps until you feel safe. You should keep your plan in a place where you can easily access it (your wallet or cell phone) when you have thoughts of hurting yourself.

The following are essential elements to explore and include in the development of your safety plan*:

1) Recognize warning signs: What sorts of thoughts, images, moods, situations, and behaviors indicate to you that a crisis may be developing? Write these down in your own words.

2) Use your own coping strategies – without contacting another person: What are some things that you can do on your own to help you not act on thoughts/urges to harm yourself?

3) Socialize with others who may offer support as well as distraction from the crisis: Make a list of people (with phone numbers) and social settings that may help take your mind off things.

4) Contact family members or friends who may help to resolve a crisis: Make a list of family members (with phone numbers) who are supportive and who you feel you can talk to when under stress.

5) Contact mental health professionals or agencies: List names, numbers and/or locations of clinicians, local emergency rooms, crisis hotlines – carry the Lifeline number 1-800-273-8255

6) Ensure your environment is safe: Have you thought of ways in which you might harm yourself? Work with your counselor to develop a plan to limit your access to these means."

I'm I need a dark place and I'm afraid I may do something imma regret... any tips or anything?

@Hidden username  Don't give up. There is a purpose for your life, you just need to find it.

(New to this, sorry if I screw it up)

Lately I’ve been so heavy. I’ve had depression for 5 years so it’s not really “new” but it’s gotten worse recently. I use to have moments when I would laugh or smile and forget everything that’s going on inside me, but now I still feel the “pain” when I smile or laugh. The bad feelings are now constant and no mater what I do, even if I forget for a moment the feelings are always right there waiting for me the next minute.
Everything online says “It’ll all get better! Stay strong!” But it’s been 5 years now and every year it just gets worse. I’ve come to realize that I’ve been holding onto a sliver of hope that somehow everything WILL get better. However I’m starting to think that I should just end my pain and give myself a break.
I really just need somebody in my life to see me and ask, “what’s wrong.” More importantly, I need to swallow my pride and be strong enough to tell them, “Nothings okay.” But I don’t want to look or feel weak to somebody.

Ronny, I feel exactly the same way. I have felt this way for as long as I can remember. I have tried everything and the pain just won't go away. I don't have all the answers, but I do know that running away or ending it yourself does not work and is not the answer. You sound very kind and wise and intuitive. If you have someone you CAN tell this too, yes, do be honest. Doing so shows strength, not weakness. Carrying this around by yourself is far too heavy of a burden. I wish you well.

I don't know if this is the right place for this I just don't have anyone else to talk to. My wife left me in April of 2019 after 23 years. we were both unhappy for the last 10 years and always had problems throughout the entire relationship probably married to young but tried to make it work for the kids but now I just feel like my whole life was wasted. I found out she was pregnant before she even left me and i'm not even sure our four adult children are all mine. I feel better about my self in a lot of ways since the divorce but no matter what I do I can't stop think about her and having dreams about her. I just want to forget about her and move on but i'm so angry now all the time. Iv'e considered help groups but I have problems talking to people and just feel like my life is pretty much over anyway. At my age I feel like I'm being childish and I used to be scared to go to prison but now I just care less and less every day. I want to leave the state but my youngest daughter took the divorce harder than anyone and I can't leave her.She's the only thing keeping me from giving up.