How to improve our relationship with food?

Hi everyone,

I've been having a lot of problems eating recently. I hate the thought of it and weigh myself religiously. My best friend notices when something is wrong because I have talked about it with her before, but nobody else really knows. I hate the way I look. I can't look at myself in the mirror anymore.

I went out for brunch with my friends last weekend and when I realized there was nothing under 100 calories (which is the limit I'm comfortable with) I settled on a small side of grapes. I would have been happy to go without anything if my friends weren't there.

I repulse myself and honestly, I don't think I'm worthy of food most days. I also really hate myself because I used to see a therapist and I feel like I've gone back on all the progress we made, but I just can't help myself.

I don't really know what to do because I know I need to fix my relationship with food and get out of this but at the same time I know it's what I deserve. I can't afford a therapist right now, does anyone have any tips on how to get through this?

Hi @KatieG‍ thank you for opening this discussion and sharing what you're going through. You definitely don't deserve to have an eating disorder. Let me tag some other members who can possibly share with you.

Hi everyone, what do you all think? How can we improve our relationships with food? What methods or strategies have you tried both in or out of therapy?
@Randomgirl‍ @SophiaVE‍ @Kristenbathke‍ @NerdyxNurse‍ @Mochasz‍ @Samantha_Falduti‍ @Snmo2k‍ @chessamay1‍ @Taettae12jr‍ @melodylorrene‍ @Ceburdette‍ @karilynn924‍ @Shewolf‍ @bbatbitch‍ @racheldemi‍ @nikobec‍ 

Feel free to share and discuss here!

Take care,
Courtney