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Posted on 9/2/20 6:38 AM
Hello. :). I am new here, and I am not exactly sure how this works. From my end, it appears that nobody has even ever posted in this discussion? I am unsure if its an unused group or if its some kind of internet error?
Anyway - Greetings to anyone who does read this. I am desperately trying to find some kind of support group or community. I have been struggling with anorexia off/on for nearly a decade and a half now. In the beginning of October 2019, I had my fourth inpatient treatment followed by Day program for one month. (I finished it all by Christmas). I am really struggling to stay on track. This is pretty much the longest all of my mental health issues (OCD, GAD, MDD, PTSD, Anorexia) have been stable at once. But I have been really struggling the past few weeks- even engaging in ED behaviors. I used to belong to a support chat on facebook but I am not sure its an option anymore (long story). I would really love to have some kind of support like that again. I have a lot of good things going for me right now but my anxiety and ED voices are really bad, and I tend to relapse around the fall/holidays. I really dont want to screw up my life. I am pretty desperate for support and encouragement right now. I would love to offer it as well.
Well anyway, that is a little about me and why I joined. If anyone reads this, I hope you are doing well and have a wonderful day. (:
Beginning of the discussion - 9/2/20Supporting one another in eating disorder recovery https://www.carenity.us/forum/anorexia/living-with-anorexia-bulimia-or-other-eating-d/new-here-2451
Posted on 9/2/20 4:31 PM
@cmmusiclover Hi cmmusiclover, thank you for opening our first discussion! No, it's not an error, this is just one of our newer communities that hasn't had any post yet. I'm sorry you're going through a hard time right now with your ED, but it's great that you're actively looking for help and support! Let me tag some other members in our community who can possibly share with you.
Hi everyone, welcome to our eating disorders group! How have you been doing? How do you cope when you feel yourself relapsing into your ED behaviors? Is there someone you turn to or something that helps you overcome it?
@Zohetmart @Pshaun @lovelychaos @Ximena1218 @Kwarpenburg @NaReyes @Terrance @k.v.graff @KwM0718 @Cookiecaper2 @sky339 @Rosie_15
Feel free to use this space to share your thoughts, experiences, and most especially support with one another!
Posted on 9/8/20 8:33 PM
So I know I probably should want to recover from Anorexia but I dont. I want to just keep going and get skinnier because I just weigh too much. How do I convince myself to stop
Posted on 9/9/20 5:15 PM
@cmmusiclover Hi, ugh I completely know what you're talking about. It's been REALLY hard for me too and I've been fighting myself and trying to ignore my urges. Especially since all the COVID stuff started and being stuck at home more. I guess there are fewer distractions and i'm stressed and I have fewer places to go so the voices and thoughts are coming back.
@Ashlee Have you been able to see someone about it or get some help? I know for me seeing a therapist really helped me realize what was behind my anorexia and what I was doing to myself. I'd been doing better for a while so I haven't seen mine in a while but I'm thinking I need to go back.
Posted on 9/9/20 5:52 PM
@KatieG I have been hospitalized two times due to other things but one of the times the staff noticed but all they did was threaten to put a feeding tube in. My parents are in denial because they dont want to believe i have an actual problem.
Posted on 9/9/20 6:42 PM
@Ashlee Ugh no, I'm so sorry... I HATE it when people don't take ED seriously. ESPECIALLY when it's doctors or other healthcare people. They should know. And that's so frustrating about your parents. mine had a hard time understanding it too.
Posted on 9/9/20 7:37 PM
@KatieG Ive honestly given up on having anyone so i guess it doesnt matter
Posted on 9/15/20 11:00 PM
On the other end. I need to loose a bunch of weight.
Since I've retired I don't do much and really have no desire to.
Please remember you are beautiful. Food is not the enemy.
Posted on 10/11/20 9:06 PM
I’m new here, and am struggling with keeping my food down. My mom had the same condition for years but doesn’t really seem to care that I can’t keep my food down on my own, I purge every time I eat, when I told her her reply was “well stop. Duh” I told her I try but it’s hard and she replied with “it’s easy” but it’s really hard for me. I have a wonderful fiancé who is trying to help but I’m not sure I can do it with his support alone, and no counselor I’ve been to has helped they kept saying I need to focus on other things first but I don’t want my baby seeing her mommy like this anymore
Posted on 3/28/21 1:33 AM
For years I've restricted how much I intake and I count calories. I also yo yo diet so when I get to my low weight at some point I lessen up and gain some just to restrict and count again. It never ends. It's just automatic for me. I've been like this for almost 40 years and will probably never get rid of it. When people comment on my weight I don't know what they see.