Need a friend to talk about mental illness

ive been struggling w/BiPolar 2  , or many years My children are grown starting their lives w/ famlies, one trying to have a wedding w/ the covid pedemic , my first born just had a baby daughter yesterday i cant see her, hold her and i live a day away another story. I going threw some serious deppression now, I feel sad, hopeless just want to cry, selfish but unloved by my family. they just dont get it no support, right know i just want them to let me know that im worth something, I know its stupid but im feeling so hurt  my granddaughter was named after her other grandmother which was ok but when choiceing a middle name it seemed they didnt even consider mine(Maggie Ann) would have been pretty too, maybe its just the BiPolar making things worse. then my daughter has a prpblem w/ keeping in touch w/ me, theres more, no close friends Thank God I do have my boyfriend hes always comforting with me and talks about the issue well with me. I dont think i could make it without him But hate to be dependent on him. if i wasnt sick id be ok on my own two feet, i have 3 sibkings 2 sisters and a brother only one of my sister invovles herself w/ my illness, but saddly she just doesn,t get it!!! its awful. sometimes when ive even told her its not a good time to talk to me she presist and my insides get a real mess and i become so misreble and sick all over, she really tears me apart! SHE just doesnt get IT!!!

@Abell20 hang in there. I wish we could exchange phone numbers. I lost my nephew to suicide.  Don't give up. Pray for guidance. God loves you. And so do I.

@Broken I'm here if you need to chat. I think talking to people who have the same conditions can be helpful. You are not alone.

Hi,

    I live alone and have been feeling both anxious and depressed, especially since the pandemic started. Can anyone else relate? If so, I would like to talk to you.

Sounds good just let me know when 

Sounds good just let me know when 

thank u for getting back to me I’d like to chat

It's so hard being a friend right now, with this Covid-19 pandemic going  on.... I just call two friends a week, that I used to chum with quite frequently now that I've moved away from them....I've been here 6 years now, in my new home....Need to stay socially distanced from everyone, God forbid!!! So strange to me, since I am an alpha male, who likes to be with friends and family....I am social, in a sense, yet I also like my private time alone....So this works, for me  sometimes....I am bored sometimes too!!! Not much to do outside in the winter in Maine for me anymore....I'm semi-retired still living in Maine, of all things considered....

I suffer with anxiety depression and the latest PTSD. I was hospitalized over 120 days was in a coma and ended up having open heart surgery. During this time my family took care of my dogs they  were my world. Me being single living alone the past 3 years they kept me busy.However, my family gave my dogs to a rescue. I would ask them how they were doing every time they. Visited. When I got home I was very excited to see my babies and they werent there. My heart already hurt now it felt like it was ripped out of my chest. I sleep or dont vet put of bed for days. There is more that has happened, can we just start with this? I need a friend. I have nobody. 

I suffer with anxiety depression and the latest PTSD. I was hospitalized over 120 days was in a coma and ended up having open heart surgery. During this time my family took care of my dogs they  were my world. Me being single living alone the past 3 years they kept me busy.However, my family gave my dogs to a rescue. I would ask them how they were doing every time they. Visited. When I got home I was very excited to see my babies and they werent there. My heart already hurt now it felt like it was ripped out of my chest. I sleep or dont vet put of bed for days. There is more that has happened, can we just start with this? I need a friend. I have nobody.