Suicidal thoughts: You are worthy of being here

I agree... it feels weird to say it but to be able to go to sleep and wake up is a win.

@Ela786 I’ve never been given words that are more supporting of my thoughts on suicide before. Or maybe I have, I’ve just dropped them a long the way to make room for my own negative thoughts. I’ve always thought about Hunter S. Thompson’s death and the way he did it and how his children described his peaceful mindset before his suicide and I’ve really admired how he took charge of his own life and ended it when he was ready. It makes sense to me. Why end life in a distressing situation with the ailments collected at the end of a lifetime? I want to stop when I’m ready, and before I spend my last days in a wheelchair with someone wiping my ass for me everyday. It seems silly and selfish to keep people from committing suicide.

My suicidal thoughts are way often than i like. It doesn't help that i had have 6 people in my life kill themselves. I fear one day I will because the hurt and stress with Bipolar, PTSD, major depression, and hearing voices others can't drives me crazy

@taeyeon5812 if u owe them money pay little by little even if it takes forever. If they don’t like it too bad you can only pay what u can. Don’t listen to the hurtful words. Ignore them. Find way to send the money little by little without contact with them in person. Only you can change your own life. Only you can make yourself happy in the future. Stop giving them the power to hurt u by listening to their words. You are worthy of happiness love getting ahead in life. Slowly but surely. Go at a slower pace of money is an issue. Set small goals that u can y. Don’t overwhelm yourself with everyone else’s pressure. Don’t stress about what u can’t control. Everyone has their own issues. they have to figure out their own money problems and can’t force u to pay what u don’t have. If they get mad let them. That’s their problem. To get mad and get happy. U pay what u can when u can. Wether they like it or not. U can’t pull money out of thin air.