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I'm 27 I have hodgkin's lymphoma I doing it all alone been feeling so torn down 

Beginning of the discussion - 11/20/19

Going through cancer treatment by yourself alone
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I'm sorry.  I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer - I am also alone.  I have my days where I feel torn down as well, but I try to do those things that I found joy in before I was diagnosed and that cloud descended upon my life.  I have lost interest in some things I enjoyed, but I try to find joy in the things I have to do.  I lost my mom to breast cancer.  Sometimes what helps me is thinking of her and even all the people that died in the towers at 9/11 and I think about how those people would love to be in my shoes, dealing with what I am, just to be alive again.  That helps me - it also makes me feel at times that I have an obligation to live my life for them because they can't.  Hope that helps

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Thank you for the support I just cant do it anymore i just i hate my self I'm from the streets so instead of rest its work i have my first child my son and i cant even be a father I feel like its over i dont talk to god no more all I see is evil and hate I do t enjoy anything anymore I just get through each hour I miss my mom so much I'm so alone and tired I'm a sheep among wolf's I'm not worthy of God's protection I reap what I sowed bad times are comeing I hope I make it through the storm but I cant see a end I just want my son to know his daddy tried love peace and understanding is what the world need to much hate and evil I love my enemies I love my family I love the world but I'm so sad all the time my mind is racing to much to much  

Going through cancer treatment by yourself alone
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I love him so much 

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@Hidden username 

he’s beautiful!!!  Where is your mom?  I could use mine too but she passed from breast cancer 25 years ago.  There are support groups available.  I’m sure you can find one in your area.  Where do you live?  Be strong, please!!!

Going through cancer treatment by yourself alone
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@Hidden username Do you have any siblings?

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I got older brothers but they have family's and there own problems my mom passed in front of me like 4 years ago I iist had chemo and radiation and I'm hurting so bad I have5take my blood thinner injections in 3 day bec of pain and just wanting to give up I been up for like 3 day I been having to make money so it's hard so hard 

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@Hidden username sorry about your mom.  I was with my mom when she passed as well.  Please locate a support group and don’t give up.  You’re worth more than that!!  Sorry getting back so late, just had my surgery today.  Have to definitely do radiation and find out next week if I need chemo - based on my tumor and lymph nodes they took out today.  I’m 55 and am not giving up.  You’re 29!!!!  You can do this!!  Try to keep a positive attitude.  Find a purpose for this, find the meaning, something you can take away from this.  It’ll help!!  You are stronger than you think!!  

prayers for you, Kris

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New to this. I don't speak about it. But I know that this is what ends me .I have been through a lot in life. But I have lived. I see an oncologist the 30th. My neurologist wants to do whole brain radiation.  Im not sure about that. I've had 2 surgeries and I wish I had not. Some times I think I am lucky I see my life as good. I wish everyone well in your fight.