Patients Bipolar disorder
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Posted on 4/2/21 5:48 AM
Long story but I got out of a 6 year relationship back in December, I feel fine from that it was toxic but its like since then I have been angry and out of control. I dont even know how to express all of the feelings I have. Im not myself anymore, I started isolating myself. I go to work and then come home and stay in my room and dont talk to anyone here. I have lost interest in any of my hobbies, i cant even focus on getting my GED anymore no matter how hard I try, I cry myself to sleep most nights with the feeling that everyone hates me and that theres nobody out there for me anymore, every romantic partner ive had has cheated on me so my self esteem is low. I dont like being sober anymore, im impulsively doing things like blowing a bunch of money at once and talking to multiple people and hooking up. Its getting out of control, Ive been feeling slightly suicidal lately but I dont want to die I just want to feel normal. I feel stuck in life and like its not going anywhere anytime soon. I just dont even know what to do anymore.
Beginning of the discussion - 4/2/21Struggling in a manic episode - Any advice? https://www.carenity.us/forum/bipolar-disorder/living-with-bipolar-disorder/manic-3213
Posted on 4/2/21 6:42 PM
The manic episodes that come with bipolar disorder a very hard to deal with when it affects your life in such a way that you spiral out of control. Taking the proper meds and keeping in touch with my psychologist helps keep me grounded. Having a solid foundation will help, it won't cure it, but it will help.
Posted on 4/4/21 2:35 AM
I am so sorry you're going thru these manic and depressive episodes. I know how hard they can be and how isolated and alone you feel. Do you have a doctor who prescribes you medicine? Sounds like you need some adjustment on meds. It takes a long time to get it right sometimes. It's taken me several years of experimenting, but I promise there is relief. It might not seem like it while you're in the middle of the muck, but it can get better. Do you have a trusted friend/relative who can help you see when you're making bad decisions while you are manic and who is not afraid to call you out on it. You can't do this alone and you shouldn't have to. When you're mind is in a negative cycle the best thing to remember is to go easy on yourself and take care of yourself. Even if that means taking a few deep refreshing breaths, taking a short walk around the block, listening to music you find soothing, whatever brings you some relief. I'll send positive energy your way and know you are not alone!
Posted on 4/11/21 9:33 PM
I haven't been depressed but I'm really manic and taking it all out on my bf. I'm severely aggressive and impulsive. I'm trying to hold the reigns on it I'm losing.
Posted on 4/12/21 8:28 PM
Sometimes when I am communicating with someone, and I’m taking a manic turn, I will either shut my mouth, smile and listen. Or I will leave the room for a while, in an inconspicuous, not rude way - simply taking care of some business somewhere in the house. Gives me time to focus on my breathing and calm down. Kind of like counting to 10, but just works better for moi. Keep your eyes on the prize 👀