Do you have a Bucket List?

@movin

I want to feel comfortable inside.

I am trying to overcome Bipolar depression and anxiety, which hold me back now, more than ever before. I spent most my life in manic states, that helped me succeed at work, career and college, but destroyed my social life and my decisions with terrible men. 

My bucket list was created early on as goals and aspirations. College was one. I wanted to achieve a PhD from age 14. I made it to psychiatric nurse and a BA degree. Having Crohns set me back constantly, always in hospital, having to stop and start school often. My bucket list consisted of travel, but I haven't had money to do that. Living in S CA was expensive and caring for my kids was expensive as single mom.

My music career didn't happen. I was in a band early on, but back then, not like today with social media. My horse career, also started but was stopped by family. I was trying for pre-Olympic riding events but I was too young and family was fearful. MY last goal, to make it a writing. My first submit, I was published. Then life happened and I stopped submitting, not writing. Now my career is over, due to leg amputation, and COVID, so writing is my only outlet. I'm determined 100% to get published again, get an agent and write on. My goal is to be on Best Writers List in different genres, NY Times and Los Angeles Times bestselling list before I die. My biggest issue is laziness, anxiety and depression keep me from getting my works out there, not written. I procrastinate and then miss deadlines. Working on this daily. Right now, I'm supposed to be writing on computer. 

I knOW with hard work determination and just do it, I will be successful. I truly want to share with the world what I write, as I know my words can help many, so my nursing career is over, but I will still be helping others.

Depression can be a tough roadblock, but tackling it head-on is a massive win. Your realization about its impact and your determination to address it is commendable. As for bucket lists, they're incredible motivators. They push us to experience life more fully.
Parkinson's may alter the game plan, but it doesn't dim the desire to make memories. Your thoughtfulness about what you want to see and do is inspiring. It's a reminder for all of us to cherish each moment. Maybe your list includes travel (even if it's to nearby spots), trying new hobbies, meeting inspiring people, or reconnecting with loved ones.
As for me, my Bucket list ideas has some wild adventures, simple joys, and self-improvement goals. I've ticked off a few—skydiving was insane!—and I'm always adding more. Sometimes, just making the list brings excitement.