Whenever I seem to finally be happy, something happens and I become depressed again

If u want to talk about it feel free to text me, im here to listen and tell u my honest opinion

I've been struggling with mild depression for many years do mainly to relationship problems and I have never been on medication for it. my mother just recently died almost four months to the day after my grandmother died and I'm having a real hard time coping and I just need somebody to talk to.

I have been dealing with refractory depression all my life. Y i got this disease i dont know. When it started i dont know. I was diagnosed at 13 with ADD and depression and my diagnoses still stands only added anxiety and worry. The few friends i have r tired hearing about it. My depression manifests by me laying in bed constantly and being bored to death but to lazy to start any project. I feel tired and low on energy all the time. Im sick of living like this. Its a wasted life. If not for my dog i would have no joy.

I have been dealing with anxiety, depression and panic attacks for four decades. I have tried every medication that you can think of. I have found that when I can’t control things around me it all comes back. I’m on Lexapro and have been for a few years and it works pretty well. I also take .5mg of Klonopin and that helps with the anxiety. It’s not all in your mind, it’s usually always associated with your life and the negative things that are going on. I have tried not to have negative things going on but it’s almost impossible.