Patients Bipolar disorder
Bipolar, it's a lonely world...
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J am new on this site and I'm not sure how this all works just yet. So I guess I will just spit It out. I am a 39 year old woman living with Bipolar type 1. It is a living nightmare! I went undiagnosed until I was 31. The Drs have tried lots of combo's of meds, but the last couple years I've been on Prozac, Vraylar, and lorazepam. The lorazepam is not enough for the anxiety that I have. The medication keeps me able to semi function. By that I mean I can get out of bed, do chores, take showers...but the aniety it overwhelms me. I feel like I'm drowning and constantly gasping for air...then there's the mania...I spend, spend, spend. I am on top of the world. Still anxious, but not crippling like the other days. I go through days where I'm so depressed that I can't even see another life but the hand I was dealt and it will never get better. Having this condition has left me on an emotional roller coaster, lonely, and feeling like a failure. I am so alone. Even with people around me I feel lonely. I have yet to meet anyone that understands this life. I could really use a hug like a long hug or a friendly conversation. Feels good to kinda let that all out. Maybe I'm not alone, if you would like a friend I am right here.
I completely understand! Hard to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Even if you make a friend a manic episode or a depressive one tends to push them away or they can't handle it. If we had cancer or even a broken bone they would be there but since it's a mental disease no one likes to put in that effort. Hugs to you and one day at a time.
Hello, I’m Shelia from Arkansas and I’m 57. I’ve been dealing with this disease since I was 15…. It’s a daily learning experience an always issues. As far as people go. Not many if any will deal with a friendship of someone that has mental issues. UNLESS THEY CAN US IT TO THERE ADVANTAGE ( you understand what I mean when I say that)!! It’s nice to meet you. If your still in the group. Look me yp
@Alyrobinson17 I just read your share and I want you to know you are NOT alone. I experience the very same as you. My family pretends to understand but they don't have a clue.
I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2004. I have tried several different medications. What works best for me is Abilify and Cymbalta.
A few years ago I was approved for credit card after credit card. What did I do? Within 2 years, I had maxed over 23 credit cards. Now Im paying the price but it sure felt good spending.
I would love to be your friend but I don't know how to send you a request. Please feel free to send me one. Maybe we could help one another.
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I'm new at this too I have bi polar 2 and it's hard never new I had it till my phycratist told me . Explains alot though didn't want to take my meds yesterday but did my husband is also dying from cancer so alot to deal with . Who else has this bi polar does it get eadier
I have bipolar one and ptsd. No loyal friends or family. They use me and tear me down. I went from gambling to another addiction. Not drugs. Hard to bathe every day. 3 daughters under 10. Married 11 years by the grace of God. Not a friend to call everyday. By myself and my thoughts constantly. Hospitalized 13 times for suicidal ideation.
Make sure you get a therapist and get on meds it really helps might take a few to find right meds but helps alot
I have lived with bipolar disorder since I was diagnosed at 13 years old. My family didn't understand it and my husband of 27 years thinks he does, but he doesn't either. He will tell me to "snap out of it" when I'm depressed or to " get over it" which doesn't really help. This mental illness isn't something you can just get over. I feel like it sucks your soul out of you. I'm bipolar 1. But I'm mainly depressed most of the time. No one understands how to deal with me not getting out of bed, sleeping a lot, not eating, not showering. I'm on 10 different meds for this and generalized anxiety disorder. I also have borderline personality disorder. I used to SH but I've stopped, still think about it though. This life is rough when you have a mental illness. You have no friends because you push them away and your family is clueless on how to help you. My husband understands at times but then gives up. We have four children(27, 26, 24, and 16) and they have grown up watching me struggle with my mental illnesses. It's been hard on them and they have have seen me go away to mental hospitals and cut myself. It's just not fair or right for them. I wish some days I had a friend or friends to talk to when things are rough.
@Alyrobinson17 I'm 52 it took me to see a phycratist to diagnose me tey sertraline works better still have bought of anxiety but works goid on other and get a therapist it helps
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