I feel like I'm alone and not important

There was a time in my life where I felt like better didn't come. That the pain I felt then, at that moment, was all I would ever have. That the one day that I cried just a little less than the day before was all that there was to look forward to. I thought that the pain and the feelings that I had were it. That happy, was only in fairytales. That a day without crying was only a dream. And I thought that the feeling of having a purpose was only a joke. Before I say anything, I want you to know that I know where you're coming from. I know the pain you feel now, feels impossible to overcome. You're not alone, you're just in a season of your life right now. It's hard to come out, I know..and its hard to think that if you do come out you won't be accepted. But hiding from it is only going to hold you up. It's only going to stop you from living on. Life isn't easy, it's hard and honestly its never going to stop being hard, but that's because it is life, that doesn't mean stop living it. I don't know if your religious or not, but I am. And the only thing that brought me out of my dark season, is God. We can't live life alone, and we aren't supposed to. Hand your problem to God, give it to Him, and let Him take care of it and I mean fully take care of it. I might sound crazy, but if you are able to trust Him, I promise you you won't regret it! You're not alone. You DO matter. We tend to tell ourselves that we are worthless when we block ourselves out from the rest of our peers. Your little sister might be a brat, but she loves you even if you think she doesn't. Don't be afraid to speak up. It's hard, but I pinky promise you, there is SO MUCH MORE, than just today! I'm here for you!

@Hellomello07 Hey I'm sorry you're dealing with that. It must be really hard with your mom being on the front lines of the coronavirus stuff. Sexuality is such a delicate topic with grandparents since they grew up in a different time. Would your mom be open to talking with you about it? Can you talk to your friends about it? The community on here is also here for you if you need to talk!

I feel you. remember your feelings and emotions arent the trut . you may feel useless but you matter! the world is better with you in it  

I feel like this all the time.  I feel like my current significant other hates me and anyone else will too eventually.  My daughter would be better off without me.  I don't matter. Someone better will always come along to replace me

@JMOdegard87 but there’s not, there’s not someone better. there is a reason your here. there is a purpose that you have and i’m not sure of what that purpose is, but there is one! i know that what i am saying to you isn’t much, i know to you it’s just words that you have heard over a million times. i know it and i get that, but i mean it! your more than just ‘another person’. Your the mother to your children. and no, they WOULD NOT be better without you! sometimes it’s hard for others to remember to show how much an individual means and although that’s not necessarily okay, we have to remember that we do matter and to someone (many people) we are the world! YOU are the world! 

I do appreciate what you have said.  It does mean so much.  I'm sure that you can understand that even though I hear this, when it is the opposite being said by the one who is supposed to help build me up, it is so hard to believe anything else

I honestly don’t know what’s going on with me. I feel alone. People around me said I have changed and I just don’t know what has gotten into me I have no one to talk to and I don’t even know what’s going on

@JMOdegard87 i know exactly what you mean, it’s hard to believe a stranger, when who matters isn’t showing you anything! but there comes a time when all you can do is show yourself! yes you have kids, a husband, family. but it’s so important to love yourself, step back and remember that you are so much more than you think you are! don’t lose what you have worked so hard for! your so much more than this hard, dark season you are going through! 

@Gabby1234 i know what you mean, it’s a season you are going through within yourself and i know completely the feeling you have! but there’s nothing wrong just because you feel a bit different now than you did yesterday! it’s a season, and you will get through this because better is always here. Ecclesiastes 3:1-11 talks about the seasons we go through within life. to every up is a down, your not alone! and the feeling of loneliness will pass! i’m here for you! i’ve been through this, and it sucks! but YOU don’t stop here!