The past few months have been awful. One of my friend's lost their father in August. Shortly after that my boyfriend's niece was diagnosed with a rare brain disease that has no cure but "watch and follow" and maybe surgery, My friend died of cancer in August, my dad died March 6th, my birthday was March 14th so the last thing I wanted to do was celebrate, and now we are in the middle of this coronavirus so when I could use the love and support of friends I am stuck in my apt., told to work from home the next two weeks cause of the virus, not able to see people or get hugs, and dealing with a boyfriend whom I love but he has COPD and continues to smoke even though he can barely breathe at times and has a chronic cough. I can't deal with being around him at present because I am so afraid he is going to die in the near future unless he quits. He keeps saying he will but doesn't. How do I get through this time? If we are going to be social distancing for months or longer and I have no access to hanging out with friends, seeing music which I love, etc. what's the point in life anymore? I have things to do to keep me busy for now but that's gonna get old soon. My friends were calling and texting me when my dad first died but now it's almost like they don't want to call me cause they don't know what to say, think I will depress them, or just feel that he died and time to move on even though it's only been two weeks since he died. It just seems every time I turn around now something horrible happens and I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel.
My life has completely down upside down, I’ve not the person I used to be, I used to be so happy, I was the happy girl in school who would never stop smiling, I used to love making jokes but not mean ones, jokes that would make peoples day but every since a couple months ago, I’ve changed completely. I barely even smile anymore, I cry every night and I’ve lost so many of my friends and I feel alone and numb like every has something good for them and I’m here with nothing, nothing good. I feel like my life is going no where. That no matter how much I try I still keep feeling sad. I’m not me anymore and I don’t understand anything, like life just crumpled into billions of pieces
What can I do when everything seems to be going wrong?https://www.carenity.us/forum/other-discussions/living-with-depression/depressed-16692020-03-20 02:50:22
Steph47
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The past few months have been awful. One of my friend's lost their father in August. Shortly after that my boyfriend's niece was diagnosed with a rare brain disease that has no cure but "watch and follow" and maybe surgery, My friend died of cancer in August, my dad died March 6th, my birthday was March 14th so the last thing I wanted to do was celebrate, and now we are in the middle of this coronavirus so when I could use the love and support of friends I am stuck in my apt., told to work from home the next two weeks cause of the virus, not able to see people or get hugs, and dealing with a boyfriend whom I love but he has COPD and continues to smoke even though he can barely breathe at times and has a chronic cough. I can't deal with being around him at present because I am so afraid he is going to die in the near future unless he quits. He keeps saying he will but doesn't. How do I get through this time? If we are going to be social distancing for months or longer and I have no access to hanging out with friends, seeing music which I love, etc. what's the point in life anymore? I have things to do to keep me busy for now but that's gonna get old soon. My friends were calling and texting me when my dad first died but now it's almost like they don't want to call me cause they don't know what to say, think I will depress them, or just feel that he died and time to move on even though it's only been two weeks since he died. It just seems every time I turn around now something horrible happens and I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel.