Let's talk about mental health

So in November 2020 i had a suicide attempt where I had overdosed and had been rushed to the hospital. I made it and was kept under watch for a few weeks. In those weeks I had began to feel like I couldn't die. I started to get urges to try to see if I could die and I had been trying to take my life to prove to myself that I couldn't die. I feel immortal. I know I can feel pain and I know I age but i believe that I cannot die. As my attempts go on in my life the pain starts to disappear. Like my attempt in November with an overdose i was vomiting and i felt terrible but my past attempt in February 2021 for an overdose the worst thing I had felt was a light headache. So after that attempt I had began to completely convince myself that I could not die. Is there something that I can do to stop this? Is there a name for this?

@jjgilber Hey, I'm sorry you got to that point. I'm glad you're still here.

I'm obviously not a psychologist or anything, but maybe it's like your mind's way to cope with the experience? Like to try to manage or cope with or process the experience of getting to your lowest point mentally/emotionally? I don't know, just a thought.

Have you talked to anyone about it? I'm sure a professional would know more about it and could help you with it.

The first time I attempted suicide I was 14 years old; I cannot remember why. Since then, I attempted a couple more times. I believe I was born unhappy. I just get up unhappy, asking God why I am still alive.