I don't know how to exist with my anxiety

So every time I feel like I have my feet on the ground, something or somebody else pulls it right out from under me and then laughs at me. I physically cannot breathe sometimes because my anxiety is so incredibly bad. I've been having to learn that I just cannot trust anyone at all. And that people will listen to the man before the "woman". The world is just so suffocating. I can't even go out and meet people because my entire brain ceases to process anything that's going on. I have finally gotten myself to a point where I am surviving on my own and my car gets totaled. I get a new car a couple of weeks later and it breaks down four days into having it. I've been relying on rides for a month now. I do know that my situation could be a lot worse, but by the time I convince myself of that, something so incredibly unfair and sexist that is out of my control happens. I just convinced myself that I am even alive. And I can't even really talk to anyone about it because I work with them or they're busy. I can't keep dealing with this.