Feeling numb with grief

Mom died in February, just buried dad Wednesday. Not sure how I feel inside, tired, sad, out of focus.

I really understand how you feel. Lost my baby brother feb.23 .2021 then my uncle dies two days ago. Then on the 18 of july my dad will be gone 11 yrs. Its very hard

Hello @DavidPyle‍  and @steph79‍, thank you both for sharing what you've been going through. I'm sorry to hear about you've both lost people in your lives. We all tend to process grief differently, and sometimes the brain can sort of "shut off" our emotions to try to help us to cope. It can be a hard feeling to shake.

Has anyone else been through this? Have you ever lost someone important to you? If so, how did you process your grief? Did you ever feel numb or empty? What helped you to make it through?
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Please don't hesitate to share any words of advice or support, we're all here to help one another!

Take care,
Courtney 

So. I can say my two closest family members have died unexpectedly. My grandma got murdered. And my (younger) brother died in a freak accident. And they were the only ones I talked to on a day to day basis. So I completely shut off from everyone. Although I’m not over the deaths (they’ve been recent). I realized. I have to keep fighting. I have to keep going and looking forward. It’s what they would want and expect. So although I want to give up. I know I have a purpose and that gives me a reason to keep fighting the pain. Their deaths broke me. But it also gave me reason to keep pushing forward. 

My daughter comes missing in2013 from a New Year’s Eve party age 19 never saw her or heard of her again 😞she left behind a baby so she 8 now , my oldest son went to prison in2014 . My mom passed in 2015 . I met my soulmate in 2016 I lost Him to a accidental over dose in 2019  March then lost my oldest sister and only sister same month same year 1 week apart  to pneumonia .  HOW AM I  TO EVER FEEL . I’m so  very broken unfixable numb ! My heart is so shattered all I see and feel is pieces everywhere 😢😞