Patients Behavioural disorders / Mental illness
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Posted on 2/24/19 8:06 AM
Today was the day to try and move forward and to overcome my eating disorder. I lasted 2hrs to avoid bulimia after eating a meal and even tried to avoid going back home or to a bathroom but I failed. But I’m not going to give up, for I know this won’t be easy.
Beginning of the discussion - 2/25/19Moving forward from eating disorder https://www.carenity.us/forum/behavioural-disorders-mental-illness/living-with-behavioural-disorders-mental-illne/moving-forward-from-eating-disorder-791
Posted on 2/25/19 3:42 AM
okay but girl listen
the best word in that passages was try. Trying is the absolute best thing you can do!! Yea, maybe it wasn’t the ideal outcome, but progress is a journey, not a destination. It’s a bumpy little rollercoaster. There will be ups, there will be downs, they’res gonna be some loops and tunnels, that one weird guy behind you that screams too loud...
I’m personally proud of you for lasting that long. And keeping that optimism!!! Being hard on yourself for something you’ve already done has absolutely NO effect... it won’t change what already happened! So keep that in mind, run, jump, and reach for the stars!!! You got this!!!
Posted on 2/26/19 4:52 AM
@Tiffany I second what @PsychoPunch said! You tried and heck you made it 2 hours! Have you ever gone 2 hours before since your eating disorder? I would imagine that is a lot of progress and you will continue to try and make progress.
We all do not accomplish our goals on our first attempt, but it is those that keep on trying that eventually reach the goal, even if it is after several failed trys.
@PsychoPunch I think said it more eloquently than me. But do not be too hard on yourself and stay optimistic.
Posted on 2/26/19 4:59 AM
@PsychoPunch and @mvn481 Thank you so much for your support. Honestly that was my first time since my eating disorder came back. When I was younger my parents knew and stayed with me as I cried and brought me to hospital help. However, For my first time I tried to focus on my boyfriend and spend time with him; but he doesn’t know I struggle with this. I also texted my friend too. Saturday night was step one and I’m trying on my own. So far I’m still struggling but I am hoping to try again or try eating something less heavy like fruit or yogurt cuz I tried with a hamburger the first time. Thanks again for all the love and support, it really helps me a lot!!!
Posted on 2/26/19 5:06 AM
@mvn481 also you asked if I have ever lasted two hours before and honestly no... and it gave me so much anxiety and it caused a rift in my emotions that boyfriend had no clue as to why. It felt like forever; but starting small may be the better way to go instead of jumping into big meals like fries and bacon cheeseburgers
Posted on 2/27/19 7:35 AM
@Tiffany that is such a great step then! I agree... small steps may win the race in this situation. Any mental disorder is challenging, so perhaps small steps is the best bet and remember that any progress is better than none. Keep us updated! You can do it!
Posted on 3/4/19 12:46 AM
I have started a tracking journal on my eating it’s based on fail passed and challeng. Fail is if I made myself sick or didn’t eat all day, passed if I succeed in eating and challenge for foods like the good heavy stuff. It’s been a challenging journey and so far i m only able to eat veggies and fruits which is more vs where I was 2 weeks ago. So I’m getting there. Still dropping weight though cuz not eating every day so that is a new step to work on.