Seasonal depression hurts

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@Myself47 hey how's it going my name is Fran 

Not real good at this, new

I dont know quite how to use the site. Im replying to Myself47 because i dont know how to create a new share.  Seasonal depression is real!  I suffer from it too.  In November when i start hearing adds and commercials i cringe. My kids know its not a good time for me but for them its their favorite holiday. So i try to keep my feelings bottled and out of sight.  This year after Christmas was over my depression didn't lift as much as usual. 

I am recently came out to my wife anf parents. Im married for 28 years. I denied my orientation due to a heavy Christian upbringing that is against it. I really believed that getting married and living heterosexually and prayer would change it.  I was in an accident a few years ago that left me clinically disabled and unable to have a drivers license. I have lost my masculinity. I am dependent on my wife for everything. She makes too much for me to be approved for pu lic assistance. I dont have money a car or license so i am stuck. We have young children. I feel like giving up many times out of a year. Im really struggling!!

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Take care,
Courtney

Ugh I honestly really hate this time of year. I truly feel like everything is worse this time of year. Does anyone else feel this way?